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Date: October 25, 2022 (1 month ago)


A/N: If you're looking for a hardcore sexual read, this piece isn't for you.

Parang tanga lang tong si Morissette. Ang kulit, panay sigaw "gusto ko ng bumitaw!" Sa isip ko, eh di bumitaw ka! Napailing ako, natatawa, pati si Mori na kumakanta lang naman dinadamay.

Naisip ko na naman tuloy yung huling kita namin. Dun talaga nagsimula ang ending. Andun pa rin naman yung init, yung sabik. Pero bakit pakiramdam ko kulang na, hindi na ako masyadong napapaso, ako ba ang kumapal lang ang balat o siya ang nabawasan ang init ng mga palad? Ramdam ko pa rin yung gigil niya habang nilalamas ang dalawang suso ko at kinakalabit ang mga nipples ko. Mainit pa rin ang hagod ng dila niya sa clit ko, masarap pa rin ang pagfinger niya sa kepz ko. Pero bakit nakulangan ako? Di ko alam kung yung isip ko ba ang nakahiwalay sa katawan ko kaya parang kapos ang ginawa niya nung huling beses kaming magkasama? O talaga lang na ramdam kong may nag-iba na sa kanya?

"Nakikipaglaban sa digmaan na talunan.
Akala ko ika'y sa akin pa pero hindi na pala."

Ayun na naman si Mareng Mori, naghihimutok. Pero yung totoo, medyo uminit mata ko sa mga linyang kinanta niya.

It has been years since that last meet up. Pinag-awayan na namin ng ilang beses yun. Kasi when pandemic hit, siempre hindi kami nagkikita. And when things started getting back to normal, nawala naman yung drive ko to go out and meet up with him. Dami ko dahilan. Until finally, I admitted to him I don't want to meet him. Not yet. I told him about the last time we were together. Yung feelings ko. And he was mad, really mad.

Ang babaw ko daw. Ang laki ng tama sa utak. He so easily invalidated what I felt at that time. Na pakiramdam ko, everything was just in my mind. Ako nga lang ba ang dudero? Tamang insecure lang? Still, he failed to convince me that we meet. Hanggang tumigil na lang din siya sa pangungulit. Pero andun pa rin naman ang everyday texts, ang updates kung anong ginagawa niya, kung nasa work na siya, kung kumain na ba siya, pauwi na at kung nakauwi na. So I thought, secured ako sa relasyon namin kahit ilang taon na kaming di nagkikita.

Minsan tatanungin niya ako, "hon hindi mo ba nami-miss ang kantot ko sayo? Sabik na sabik na ako sayo. Puro salsal na lang ginagawa ko." Tatawa lang ako. Sasagutin na hindi. Na galingan pa niya pagsalsal. Pero minsan-minsan, bibiruin ko siya na alam ko namang may iba nang humihimas sa kanya. May iba ng dumidila sa titi niya, at may ibang kepz na rin siyang kinakain, kinakantot. And he would only reply "kike mo. Kantutin kita jan eh."

Until that day. Walang texts. It was past 4, he was supposed to be done with his shift by that time. Ang isip ko, naubusan lang ng load. Or nadrain ang battery. So I waited until the usual time that he should have arrived home. Pero wala pa ring paramdam. So I called him up. The phone wasn't even ringing. I tried his Messenger. Same thing. Nada. I started to get really worried. May nangyari ba? Natatakot ako baka nadisgrasya sa pagmo-motor and he has no way of contacting me. My mind and heart were racing.

"Gusto ko ng bumitaw, pero ayaw pa ng puso.
Gusto ko ng bumitaw, may pag-asa pa siguro."

He reached out the following day. Apologizing. Saying his phone broke. Ano pang sasabihin ko? Nag-alala lang ako, sabi ko. And he said sorry again. At tandaan ko daw, kahit ang dami niyang pagkukulang, mahal na mahal niya ako. That was Sunday night. Monday morning, he sent me a message. Naiinis daw siya kasi pumasok pa siya na-approve naman daw pala ang leave niya. Hindi naman daw puede ipa-retract. So I asked him how come he failed to tell me that he's supposed to be on leave? Bakit siya nag-leave? Then he replied hindi ko daw ba naintindihan, hindi nga daw niya alam na na-approve. And at that time, natatawa na ako. I replied back. Sabi ko oo nga hindi siya nainform that it was approved. But that wasn't my question. I asked why did he file a leave in the first place and then convenient...

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BellaVictoria
October 25, 2022 (1 month ago)

Mahigpit na virtual hugs, Ate Sam.

Parang naubusan na yata ako ng sasabihin but because ako si Bella, ang taong madaming sinasabi, i-DM ko na lang sayo.

But on a more serious note, partings are never easy. It never is, never was but let this be a sign from the universe why inaalis nya sa buhay mo ang taong hindi na nakakapag pasaya sa’yo. Inaalis ka nya sa further pain na maaring i-cause ng pag stay.

Sabi na naman ni Mareng Bianca Sparacino, “Closure is the way we hold on when we don’t want to let go.” pero sinabi nya rin na
“You have to let go because when you hold on, when you keep something alive inside of you, you are allowing for your past to take up the space in your heart and in your mind that is meant for the future.”

Kaya mahigpit na yakap ulit. You know where to find me. 😘

Lastly. “Sabi ni Dr Seuss: Do not cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.”

xx,
BV

Sometimes we put up walls not to keep people out but to see who cares enough to knock them down.

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somebodyuused2know
October 25, 2022 (1 month ago)

Bella❤️❤️❤️ Lalabs kita alam mo yan. And thank you.

"You are my lesson learned"

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Takiyomi
October 25, 2022 (1 month ago)

Tapatan ko yung song ni Mareng Mori ng "Huwag Ka Nang Umiyak" sa bersyon ni Gary V. Imagine the Lord will sing it for you.

I don't need a lot, just a few who truly cares.

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somebodyuused2know
October 25, 2022 (1 month ago)

Aw Taki, that's sweet. Thank you.

"You are my lesson learned"

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MisterU
October 25, 2022 (1 month ago)

Ouchh!
Sad naman.

I miss you Sam. Este, write ups mo pala.

😊

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somebodyuused2know
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Kung si All of Me ka man, I miss you too. If not, I miss you too pa rin 🤣🤣🤣

"You are my lesson learned"

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MisterU
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Tagal ko na dito silent reader na lang. Basta pag may nakita ako galing sau, lalabas at lalabas talaga ako.

Co'z all of me loves all of you. 😊

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somebodyuused2know
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Thank you. Stay safe, and be happy. Always. ❤️

"You are my lesson learned"

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MisterU
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Haha, ako yata dapat magsabi sa'yo ng stay safe, and be happy?

Kasi naman, gusto mo na "bumitaw". Well, be careful baka malaglag ka. Buti sana kung sa akin na. 😅

Just kidding. Stay safe, kapit ng mahigpit muna. Prepare ko lang babagsakan mo, in case bibitaw ka na talaga.😂😂😂

I miss you really Sam!

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somebodyuused2know
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Mga pa-fall 🤣🤣🤣 Tapos pag nahulog na, biglang mawawala. Ay nako.😂

"You are my lesson learned"

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MisterU
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Hala! Loko 'yun ah? Sino ba yun? Bulong mo sa akin at ako na bahala magpakulam. Big NO tayo sa ganyan.

Don't worry Sam. Hopefully, sana maipasa ang anti-ghosting bill  para makaganti naman tayo.😊 ilang beses na din ako nabiktima ng ghosting na yan eh.

Kaya ako, I rather stay as your friend kasi ayaw kita saktan. Taga-lagay lang ako ng sapin, para di masakit pag lapag mo. 😁😁😁

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hirayamanawari
October 25, 2022 (1 month ago)

Aguy i feel u...

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somebodyuused2know
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Yung "aguy" feel na feel ko din po. 😀 Thank you for reading.

"You are my lesson learned"

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Abet02
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Same as you are

Mature guy

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somebodyuused2know
October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

Abet02, I hope you're okay. Thank you for reading.

"You are my lesson learned"

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October 26, 2022 (1 month ago)

A guy also ghosted me. Fresh pa. Wala man lang sign. Bigla na lang nawala.

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October 30, 2022 (30 days ago)

Tamang hinala talaga tayong mga babae noh, kapag naghinala, tama talaga 😈

Manila Ocean Park talaga naaalala ko dito. Tapos iiyak iyak pa ako nun. Hayop 🤣 Sino na nga ba iniyakan ko nun? 🤣🤣🤣

Oh well, sistah, wala ako matinong maicomment. Basta, alam mo na ano gusto ko sabihin. Di lang talaga ako magaling mag-comfort. Pero dadamayan kita sa inuman kahit wala na akong praktis 😎

Mori, tayo naman mag-bonding kapag nakaluwag ako sa pagjjueteng 😅

It’s okay if you don’t like me. I was not born to impress you.

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somebodyuused2know
November 17, 2022 (12 days ago)

Sissy now ko lang nabasa to. Sorry. Oo, yung sa Manila Ocean Park hahaha, gusto ka na namin bembangin, kahit si Koyah, tinawagan ka pa yata para icomfort. Now, siya pala ang magiging reason why I need to be comforted, charot 😅

Alam ko naman anjan ka lang, thank you😘

"You are my lesson learned"

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lavandera
October 31, 2022 (28 days ago)

Same feeling with Moira. Wala namang pumipigil girl, bitaw na!

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somebodyuused2know
November 17, 2022 (12 days ago)

Lavandera, slr, pero salamat ng marami for always dropping by.  

Sa memories na lang nakakapit, pero kahit dun, lapit na rin bumitaw. 😁 Thank you ulit!

"You are my lesson learned"

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