(A/N: Non-erotic story)

Natatandaan ko pa ang reaksyon ko ng tuluyan kong malaman na hindi siya para sa akin. Masakit, nakakagulat at nakakainis. I actually saw it coming which I'm going to tell later kung bakit. Napatunayan ko sa aking sarili na minsan ay in-denial lang tayo sa mga bagay-bagay pero sa totoo ay natatakot lang tayo na harapin. Ngunit kapag nalampasan ang isang unos sa buhay ay lalong nagiging mas matatag and most likely becomes a better person.

I was in my early 20s when I first met Jake. We both had regular office jobs although nasa bandang north of Metro Manila ang workplace niya. He's few years older and also single na kagaya ko.

We met at a lecture that we both attended. Had a small chat then dated a few times until we ended up in bed. Hindi ko na lang dedetalyehin pa just to cut the story short. Anyway, minahal ko siya at minahal niya rin ako. Marami kaming mas napapagkasunduan kesa sa hindi kaya naging smooth ang nabuong "relasyon".

Jake was okay naman in terms of being physically fit and smart lalo sa work niya. Medyo alon-alon ang buhok, katamtaman ang ilong at mga mata na hindi singkit pero hindi rin malaki. Kayumanggi ang kulay at taas na pangkaraniwan. He's a typical pinoy physically coupled with a great personality and sense of humor.

Kilalang ugali ng mga lalaki na gustong pinagsisilbihan sila at kadalasan na nasusunod sa mga gusto. Dominant at times. Yan lang ang tanging kapintasan niya na alam kong karaniwan na sa mga kalalakihang Pilipino kaya natutunan ko naman agad na tanggapin. It's no big deal sakin that time. I was young, naive and still a virgin kahit nagkaroon na ako ng boyfriend noong college days.

I still remember the first time na parang nagulat na lang ako na nasa isang motel na kami. It was my first time sa maraming bagay with him including that love-making place. Inamin niya na hindi ako ang una niya but it's okay. Past is past. He's a guy anyway sa isip ko. Don't blame me dahil I'm also just an ordinary girl. Saka he's funny, nice, gentle and galante sa mga dates namin. More than what a lady would ask for as far as I'm concerned.

Jake knows how to make you feel special and say the right words. Iba ang boladas o "tabas ng dila" sa salitang kanto. Mga tipong magpapakilig sayo at makakapagpataas ng confidence. I have self-confidence naman pero iba pala kapag ganon ang treatment ng isang lalaki sayo na para kang lumulutang.

If I recall it right ay hindi kami yung tipong official na nagligawan at nagsabihan ng 'I love you'. The feeling was mutual but we say those words to each other every now and then. I can't even remember kung nagkaroon kami ng anniversary pero sa loob-loob ko ay secondary na lang yon. For me it's not as important. Whatever we had ay hindi naging clear at hindi out of the ordinary pero masaya ang feeling ko kapag nandyan siya at magkasama kami. I guess ay iyon naman ang mas mahalaga.

The motel room was big and nice. May mga mirrors even sa ceiling. I know that he's quite amused na makita akong napaka-inosente sa loob ng kuwarto na yon. Naiwan ako saglit na palinga-linga dahil pumasok sya sa banyo. Binuksan ko ang TV then umupo sa kama na parang bata na waring dinadama ang lambot nito. Then, he came out from the bathroom after 5 minutes and asked me if I want to use it. I just smiled and went inside. I was nervous and curious at the same time sa mga nangyayari that time.

Pero gusto ko rin talagang makita kung ano ang meron sa banyo kaya panay ang usisa ko. May jacuzzi siya sa loob at napakaluwag. Gusto ko sanang i-try pero nag-aalangan naman ako. I freshened up a bit at lumabas na rin afterwards.

Jake was looking at me thoroughly dahil lumabas ako na nakashirt and panty na lang. He said "tabihan mo ako". Ang bilis na ng mga pangyayari mula doon. He kissed me and my whole body. It was heaven! Alam niyang wala pa akong karanasan pero alam niya ring handa akong ibigay ang pagkababae ko sa kanya. He did a few things na tipong ito yung part na sinasabing "nakalimot sa sarili".

He finally asked me kung handa na raw ba ako. Kapwa kami nakahubad ngunit ako ay parang tupa na handang sumunod hanggang sa katayan. In my mind ay hindi naman ako sasama sa kanya sa motel kung mag-iinarte lang ako. Isa pa ay gusto ko na rin talaga na maranasan ang sex. Handang-handa na akong magparaya sa mga oras na yon.

Buo man ang loob ko na gawin yon ay nanaig pa rin ang presence of mind ko. Sinabihan ko siya na magsuot muna ng condom dahil gusto kong makasiguro na kung gagawin ko ito ay wala dapat sabit. Ilang saglit pa ay nagtanong siya sakin sa ikalawang pagkakataon, "Are you ready?".

Tumango lang ako at tuluyan na nga akong nagpaangkin kay Jake. Saglit na tumigil ang mundo ko. Naging isa ang katawan namin. Tanda ko pa ang pagdaloy ng luha sa mga mata ko noong ganap na niyang kuhanin ang iniingatan kong pagkababae. It wasn't as painful but not as pleasurable, too. The immeasurable pleasure started nang gawin ulit namin after few weeks sa ikalawang pagkakataon.

He made me feel like a real woman. Masaya, masarap, mainit, mapang-akit at puno ng pagmamahal ang bawat pagsasanib ng aming mga katawan. Ilang ulit pa itong nangyari na wala akong pinagsisisihan dahil tanggap ng society ang pre-marital sex. Hindi na taboo ang ganito at alam kong nag-eenjoy ako sa mga panahon na yon.

Pero ang lahat yata talaga ng bagay ay may hangganan. Pinalaya ko si Jake dahil natuklasan ko na may iba siyang nobya bukod sa akin. Yes, I saw it coming da...

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thisishowitworkz
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Dpat sa facebook mo nlg pinost to eh. 😂

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alexies
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Do you know what A/N means? If not, try using Google.

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alexies
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Author, I can relate dun sa pagiging naive ng bidang babae. I remember so many things. Hahaha.

Mahirap mag-move on, I'm saying this based on what I know. But there's no other way but to move forward after everything. Lesson learned the hard way.

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Helen_90
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Thank you for your input.

I'm a happy camper.

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Hector1972
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

I like your story kahit hindi usual erotic. It’s a personal experience and thank you for sharing it to us.

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Mr.M
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Sweet no bitter after taste,you move on well unlike some who can't believing the past won't move to the present so that they'll have a future

ISO certified DOM and ATC(Ako'y Talagang Cute!)

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rammel170666
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Oky n yun atlest happy kna....  D mn kyu ngkatuluyan atlest natikman nyu ang isat isa

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PoeticManiac
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Thanks for sharing. Even though its quite sad for the ending to be like that. Atleast you met a man who is gentle who took your first.

Unlike some lame ass guy who spouts nothing but shit who dont care whether if you feel good or not.

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Helen_90
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Thanks!

I'm a happy camper.

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starst1949
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Thank you for sharing. Yoy may be naive in the ways of the world but you are smart and kevel headed in things that natters most. Decent and classy  hope you find a man who will be true to you unlike the smooth operator like  your EX .  Writing this story would help you release your emotion. I luke that you are not bitter. Its his loss not yours  he let go such  a wonderful woman like you.

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Helen_90
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Thanks for this.

I'm a happy camper.

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Bebeko
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Smart move, great story. Welcome sa FSS.

Good job!

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supladongnaughty
November 26, 2018 (20 days ago)

Nice. Even though siya ang nakauna syo, you are wise and strong enough to let him go. Hope you find the right guy for you.

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