I couldn't fall asleep. As much as I tried, I just couldn't fall asleep. Someone pointed out that I shouldn't be stressed out by a simple course and just let my instincts flow, but I just couldn't do it. At 47 years old, I feel as though my memory cells are failing me. It's taking longer for me to process and memorize historical data. It's just a few, but it made me feel panicked and pressured to the point that I felt like I didn't want to study it anymore. At the same time, I had to because if I didn't, it would be as though I threw out money for nothing.

I kept tossing and turning in bed. My mind was still wide awake at 2:30am and my body was feeling hot. I wonder what I might have done. Was it really because of stress that I couldn't sleep or was it something else?

As I tossed and turned, I felt hot. I started having these lustful thoughts.

I imagined myself standing and waiting for the bus to arrive at dawn. I was all alone. There were no other passengers waiting, until suddenly, this lone man appeared out of nowhere. He slowly approached me and stood right next to me. I didn't look at him. I just stood there watching the quiet street.

I didn't even realize that he had silently walked over to stand behind me. The only time I knew what happened was when he gra...