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My Planner… And Him (1/N)

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Confession: True Story, Taglish · Categories: Erotic Couplings · Tags: ,
Date: January 16, 2022 (4 months ago)


"May new planner ako from bank. O di ba? First two entries ng year." Caption ko sa isang screenshot na nisend ko sa kanya. Screenshot ng isang page ng planner ko, with two dates na magkasunod na may entries. First entry, "We made up", second entry, "We made love".

"Gawin ko tong scribblings to remember sa relasyon natin starting January 2022. Malay mo umabot naman tayo ng matagal."Sabi ko sa kanya.

Gaano na nga ba kami katagal? At paano nga ba kami nagsimula?

Ahhh! It all started with a wrong whisper message. Hindi sya wrong whis in the sense na hindi para sa akin yong message nya. Wrong whis sya kasi dapat sa lobby ang message na yon at hindi sa whisper.

That time, naghanap ako ng distraction. Naghanap ako ng pansamantalang relief sa magulo kong emosyon. Naghanap ng magtuturo paano laruin ang ML. At isa sya sa nagpresentang magturo sa akin. So from FSS, napunta kami sa ML. But it was short-lived kasi naimbyerna ako sa ML. (Sa mga ML players, alam nyo bakit nakakainis ang ML lalo na sa mga noobs na tulad ko.)

Anyway, sa ingame chat ng ML, he asked for my TG. Deactivated both TG and Viber ko nun for the simple reason na iniiwasan ko si ex, iniiwasan kong makita sya kasi everytime nalang na nakikita ko sya dun, natetempt akong mag-message sa kanya. In retrospect, napaka-pathetic ko nun. Pero wala eh, naging tanga ako for the nth time :)

Dahil wala akong TG, I told him may Discord ako if he wants.

That was how we started chatting on a personal level, almost three months ago.

He knows my pain pero hindi sya nagtanong ng mga bagay na hindi ko kayang i-share. He was just there keeping me sane, lalo na kapag sinusumpong ako ng kalungkutan. From messages lang naging calls na until umabot na kami sa kakantahan ko sya hanggang sa makatulog na sya.

I didn't realize then that what we have is deeper than "just being friends" until I posted a blog para kay ex.

His words resonated in my dumb brain.

"How could you?"

Shit!

It took me a week to finally come to terms with what I was about to lose. I was focused on my pain, on what happened between me and my ex, on my past that I didn't see my present, what I have, who I have in that moment. That he was just right there, in front of me.

That was the first time na nasaktan ko sya. And that wasn't the last.

But something good came out from that incident. Yong random calls, naging routine na sya. At yong hulsam na usapan nauwi na sa sexy time. At dahil magkaiba kami ng time zones, effort para sa kanya ang tawagan ako para sabay kaming matulog.

And super effort pa kapag taglibog ako in the middle of the week. Sya ang natawag pero ako ang nanggigising. Nanggigising ng libog nya. Wala eh, between the two of us, ako ata ang laging taglibog at ako ang laging nag-aaya.

So back to my planner.

There is this other entry that says, "And we both finally came > Fast :)".

I showed him that entry and he said "Di mo sinulat tinulugan kita?"
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