Then Suddenly A He Showed Up

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Date: Wednesday, 15 September 2021 (4 days ago)

Hindi ko talaga alam ba't bigla kong naisipang pumunta sa lobby that night.

Meron akong mga nakilalang nakakatawa, yung iba harot lang, meron din mababait, merong chika lang
at merong ikaw. (char)

When time comes that I'll only see all of this in hindsight, I know I might even feel ashamed or laugh at myself for writing about someone like you whom I never even had a chance to really know no matter how much I wanted to.

Our first chat was nothing extraordinary, nagsimula lang din tayo sa "hi" - "hello" but you were so chatty, to the point na inabot na tayo ng halos hating-gabi wala ka paring tigil kakapang-asar. And no matter how much I told you na dun ka na sa iba kasi boring akong kausap, you just won't stop sending me chats at all.

I'm not sure if you'll ever read this. I mean, you don't have to. But I'm pretty sure that you'd be laughing about this kung mabasa mo nga 'to.

You asked too many questions about me. Parang graded recitation lang ang peg. Sana lang you also allowed me to get to know you better. Because everytime I asked about you, you would dodge the questions and would always talk about something else and for the first few times I thought:

"Ah, baka di pa siya ready, baka ayaw niya pa magkwento about himself. Okay lang."

And then time came when you told me to install an app so you can talk to me always and have a space where you can be honest with me and tell me about who you really are with no filter. That's what you asked me to do.

And I did what you asked me to.

But that's also the time when I started to feel that you're already drifting away, I knew our coversations are starting to run dry. 'Di ko lang masabi sayo but that's how I felt. Wala kang sinagot ni isa sa mga tanong ko and finally, it hit me:

"Ah, okay ayaw niya pala talaga. He would've done it sooner if he really wanted to. Okay tanggap ko na, ako lang pala ang interesado. Okay lang 'di ko ipipilit. Okay na."

Because your words don't match your actions anymore. Sabi mo pa hindi mo ako kayang itulad sa ibang mga nakakachat mo, kung ganoon, so ano lang ba ako? Gusto ko lang malaman kung bakit ganito?

Had you given me even just a pinch of yourself, I would have been willing to break for you even in a million tiny pieces.

I would never apologize to you for liking you. And why would we apologize to people for liking them if they can't reciprocate the feelings?

I can't like you na halfway lang. There are so many mediocre things in this world already and I don't think that our ability to feel and admire someone should be some of those. I know people always believe that there's something very wrong about falling for someone so early but it's just the society that says that. They just try to make it sound bad. Matagal o mabilis, it's the same thing: nahulog ka parin.

From then on, I decided to run away from you, sabi nga nila sometimes to run is the bravest thing, because I realized that from...

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Wednesday, 15 September 2021 (3 days ago)

Shet. Ang sakit lang.

Limited Edition.

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Thursday, 16 September 2021 (3 days ago)

whew! bigat ah. pero ganyan talaga, part na ng buhay natin ang magkaron ng mga unexpected na pangyayari.

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Thursday, 16 September 2021 (3 days ago)

wow... nicely expressed truth... at the very least, you and him had shared moments of getting to know each other... sometimes, we really need to manage our expectations... it is our expectations that cause pain and sadness brought about by frustrations.

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Thursday, 16 September 2021 (3 days ago)

Hi author..naiyak ako kse parehas Tayo Ng experience.....Godbless sis..just be yourself

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Thursday, 16 September 2021 (3 days ago)

Chat life. Too many variables. Some with expectations. But life goes on.

"Freedom is absolutely necessary for the progress in science and the liberal arts." - Baruch Spinoza

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Saturday, 18 September 2021 (1 day ago)

Sus, wag k pauto s mga yan Sis

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Saturday, 18 September 2021 (1 day ago)

Madaming ganyan. Always remember, we are who we are bago tayo pumasok sa rito. Dont give too much. Tuloy lang ang takbo ng buhay natin ※hugs※

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Saturday, 18 September 2021 (1 day ago)

Ilabas mo lng yan author

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Saturday, 18 September 2021 (1 day ago)


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Saturday, 18 September 2021 (1 day ago)

sana maging ok ka na author

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