My Rude Awakening V

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Date: August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

Ch. 05: Turning a No into a Yes

I was a nervous wreck after sending him my room number… My heart was racing and I couldn't even tell if I was feeling excited or having a panic attack. I've always been a straight arrow my entire life and I have never done such things to complicate my life. Both of my hands were in my face trying calm myself down a little bit and when the adrenaline started to subside, a huge groan came out of me."What have I done?… this is stupid..."sigaw ng utak ko while slapping the bed out of frustration.

I got up and went to the toilet to slap some water sa face ko when suddenly I heard my phone ring and it was Dan. Honestly, I have no idea what to say so I just let it ring. He called a few more times and when I didn't answer, he just sent me an SMS. Apparently, he can't use the lift without a key card so he wanted me to pick him up sa looby.

No shit! I just realize na I still have an out pa pala to this situation. I can pretend na I didn't get his message or I was sleeping na while waiting for him or something, etc any lame crappy excuses that I can think of.

It was then that my rational thought process came back at mejo nahimasmasan na rin ako. I was in my bed staring at my phone as I watched it ring over and over. I put my phone in mute and hid it under my pillow hoping to lessen the guilt I was having. I know that I fucked up sobra, pero I was doing the right thing for me. Paasa na kung paasa... I decided to take a long bath na lang in preparation to sleep. After 20-30 minutes I decided to check my phone at puro missed calls lang pero walang message. Sabi ko pa sa sarili ko"Umalis na sya siguro... buti naman..."

I checked my inbox again and maybe he did send me a message na hindi nag appear sa notifications and still no messages. I was lying in bed and trying to think about what could've happened. I feel terrible sa nagawa ko. I wanted to text him to at least make me feel better.Should I pretend na kunwari na late ko nareceive mga message nya? Should I tell him na next time nalang at magpaasa na naman? I messed up bigtime. I kept asking myself "bakit ba ako urong sulong?".

Is it because of his connection with Christian? Not really. Eh ano naman diba? I wanted him to know pa nga na naka move-on na ako and enjoying life at maraming nagkakagusto sa akin.

Is it because of my stupid morals and principles? I've never been careless and always been aware of the consequences of my actions. I grew up sticking into my beliefs kahit na there's a part of me wanted to loosen up a little bit. Is it guilt about breaking them or maybe because I'm concerned about other people's impression of me? There's no one around so I'm not concerned about any backlashes and for some reason, I wasn't feeling any guilt. It felt like I was waiting for the right moment to break free.

Is this a perfect opportunity to break bad?Well, I'm in my hotel room all by myself. I'm pretty sure I won't be coming back to SG anymore. This situation with Dan or Christian is something that I can escape when it's over. I can back to my old ways and pretend that it didn't happen.Hmm interesting...

Is it because of his looks?Yeah, probably that's it. In my deep fantasies, I've always envisioned myself na if ever I decided to hook-up for casual sex it's going to be with a suave looking athletic type of guy. A decent looking boy with a killer sex appeal. Ika nga nila, If you gotta do wrong, do it right diba. Why would I settle for anything less?

Despite his rugged looks, Dan has this confidence that was somehow winning on me. Other than Christian, wala pang guy na may lakas ng loob na kausapin ako about sex let alone sabihin sa akin directly what he wanted to do to me sexually.Is that really enough to score a girl like me?I was way overthinking stuff too much. It's not like I'll end up marrying him or spend the rest of my life with this guy. I was still young then and about to enter my prime. I have all the time I need to find the right guy to spend my future with.

But for a ONS, do I really need to be picky in terms of looks? Well, it's not like I'm going to parade him as a guy I hooked up with. Wala namang feature sa FB na magaappear na lang bigla sa timeline na "Dan just hooked-up with J" and then all of our friends are gonna see and judge me for it. (Black mirror idea! anyone?)

Well, there's a good chance of Dan bragging to his friends about hooking up with me. Guys do that. I don't care about their friends... I don't know any of them and probably won't see them ever again. I'm more concerned about Christian but why would I? I'm single and free to do whatever I want. Christian never introduced me as his ex-girlfriend anyway so Dan's actions wasn't breaking any of Barney's Bro code (sort of).

Imagine the reaction from Christian when he finds out about me hooking up with Dan. Hmmm, let me rephrase that. Imagine the look on Christian's face if he finds out na I allowed Dan to fuck the hell out of me.

Outside of my prudish exterior, I have an imaginative mind din when feeling naughty and turned on (yes, tao lang ako and I fantasize too). I'm not as pure as I appear at marami rin akong kalokohan na naiisip. I don't think about sex that much but when I do, I can be rowdy as any person could be. Besides, nobody can judge you for your dirty thoughts as long as you just keep it to yourself. Sa mga actions ko lang naman ako maingat.

Along the way, I discovered that exhibitionism turned me on a little and in a way that it's not about the frenzy of doing it in a public place or the excitement of getting caught, but rather the thrill of exposing my inner libog to certain someone and seeing their surprised reaction na I'm capable pala to do the things na sa tingin nila na hindi ko magagawa. A dose of a rude awakening. Not sure if exhibitionism sya pero a set of eyes seeing me in a different way kind of turns me on a little.

Habang nagmumuni muni, a message from Dan suddenly pops into my phone screen. It says "Tingin ko nagbago nanaman isip mo pero oks lang naiintindihan ko, wag ka magworry…." with smiley face emoticon. Honestly, I was expecting him to be mad but he wasn't. He was still being nice(or maybe at least pretending to one)despite na halos pinaasa at mukhang pinaglalaruan ko sya all night.

"I'm sorry Dan, hindi kasi ako sanay sa ganito tbh... I'm torn talaga but I cant…. alam mo naman kung bakit..." was all I could muster.

"At Least napa dalawang isip kita. Major accomplishment na yun!...." masayang reply pa rin nya.

"Haha. Well yeah, you almost… err.... basta..basta..." biro ko pa sa kanya.

"Almost na ano? na makantot kita? hehe..." direchahang reply nya.

There's that bastos word again na hindi ko alam bakit malakas ang effect sa akin. Since harmless chat lang naman, I replied "Yup..." at least kahit sakyan ko na lang ang trip nya.

"Anong 'yup'? sabihin mo!" reply ni Dan na mejo demanding. I keep replying "basta" and "basta yun na yun" at paulit ulit din sya sa pangungulit na sabihin ko ng buo yung gusto nyang marinig. Maarte ko syang sinagot in english pero he insisted na ulitin ko and this time in tagalog daw.

"Lol. Okay fine. Muntik mo na ako makantot. There! Happy?" Pataray ko pa rin na reply kahit na I'm starting to feel some arousal by our exchanges.

"No, sabihin mo name ko at wag yung napipilitan… sige na!" pangungulit pa rin nya.

I never had this kind of dirty convo with a guy before. Not even through messages or chats. I always feel icky when it comes to cyber or phone sex but I realized that this is the only courtesy that I can at least extend in return for the way na halos roller coaster ko syang pinapaasa all night.

I was imagining him at home na and jerking off to our exchanges. I kind of owe it to him na kahit papaano he can get some release through me without actually doing the deed. Besides chat lang na...

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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)


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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

Tnga ina sarap kabitin author more please

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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

Wow... Ang galing ng pagka deliver. Dalang dala ako.. Hahaha.. Can't wait on the next chapter..

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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

At di ko napigilan, ayun sumabog. ang messy tuloy..  😂

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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

Haha ganito rin ako kabastos sa kachat eh. Good to know may effect din pala talaga.
Ganda ng kwento banayad ang build up. More pls.

Write to express your feelings, entertain, appreciate, and influence. Don't just write because of the LIKES. Hold the emotions and let the words dance.

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August 21, 2021 (3 months ago)

Natawa ako sa banayad 🙂♥️

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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

you have awakened the beast and it not like the light which you can easily switch off. now gurl, face the music. abangan ko kasi nabitin ako. kala ko meron na mangyari bukas pa pala CAPTCHA:PAPAYA

mind over matter

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August 21, 2021 (3 months ago)

Thanks. Mejo long build-up sya so I appreciate everyone's patience ♥️

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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

always waiting for your update

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August 21, 2021 (3 months ago)

Thanks for your patience 🙂

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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

This version is still good. More polished.

Though, if I may say so, the way it was originally written, the first version has the power and beauty of something raw, wild. Untamed. Pure unbridled pleasure. Piping, sizzling hot.

Still, a big thanks for republishing this story, mam stellargirl.

Captcha: piping

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August 21, 2021 (3 months ago)

Thanks for that. I fixed a few errors but basically both versions are more or less the same. Just reposting them again here para sa mga hindi familiar 🙂

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August 20, 2021 (3 months ago)

I thought I'd never get to read this, pinoytabayan palang inaabang abangan ko na to, shet

DM lang TG: @Unknowinged

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