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(A/N: This chapter is kinda short and no detailed sex scenes. So, you may skip this if you're looking for a steamy confession.)

More than a month after nung nangyari sa amin ni Kent, bumalik na naman ako sa chatroom. Nag-observe if Kent was still active. Ilang araw akong nagmasid pero I didn't see his name sa chatters' list so I had assumed na hindi na sya pumapasok sa lobby or naka-invi lang at ayaw magparamdam. Either way, I didn't actually care, inis ako sa kanya eh. Kaya balik chatroom resident ako. That time, nauso na ang Private Room (PR).

Dahil isa ako sa mga "testers" ng new chatroom feature, nanghihila ako ng chatter nun who would help me check kung anong meron sa PR at kung may mga bugs ba. At isa sa mga nahila ko si Cee.

Cee, for Chip and Dale. Sya si Cee, ako naman si Dee (for Dale). Korni, I know. Pero minsan kapag nasa height ka ng paglalandi, may mga bagay na hindi mo maiisip na korni pala.

If I remember correctly, ava nya that time was Chip and Dale, my all-time favorite cartoon characters. Actually, his ava caught my attention kaya ko sya hinila sa PR.

From test lang sana, napunta sa daily PR na. Hanggang nag-crossover na sa FB Messenger at sa Viber. Unti-unting nahulog ang puso ko sa kanya hanggang nabuksan na din nya ang padlock ng aking pekpek.

He was the first guy dito sa FSS who I had cam to cam sex with. And we did it not just once. Siya din ang nag-iisang lalakeng sinendan ko ng vid na nag-DIY ako with frontal (read: pussy) exposure. Nahiya ba ako nun? I guess nung una, pero dala ng matinding libog, kumapal ang mukha ko. Ganun naman ata kadalasan eh. Kapag comfortable ka na sa isang tao samahan ng nag-uumapaw na libog, nawawala ang inhibitions mo sa katawan.

Pero hindi kami nagtagal ni Cee. Less than three months after that first PR, Cee told me we needed to end what we had. He was married and I believe I don't really need to explain why the tryst had to stop. Pero, isang buong araw ko din syang iniyakan habang naka-loop ang kantang 12:51 sa Spotify ko. Yeah, tanga talaga ako pagdating sa usapang puso. Even at this age.

Mid-January 2017, I badly needed to download the latest Autocad software para kay Chut. Hindi daw kasi sya makahanap nun and she needed it para sa new job nya. Natanggap sya as college instructor in one of the colleges sa Cebu province.

Naghanap ako sa chatroom ng makakatulong sa problema ko and I also posted both sa real and dummy FB ko. And one of those who commented sa post ko was this guy na matagal ko ng friend sa aking dummy FB. Let's call him P.

Taga-FSS din si P and the first time we chatted sa lobby (sometime in May 2016), I was impressed. Hindi sya bastos, nasakyan nya ang mga jokes ko at isa syang IT sa isang BPO that time. Yes, inuulit ko, I am a sucker for IT peeps, dagdag pang may sense of humor and witty. He really got me.

Unfortunately, he also told me his age during that first encounter sa lobby. And oh boy, he was 19 years younger than me. Kaya nung nag-message sya sa FB Messenger (kasi daw lag sya sa FSS), hindi ko sya ni-reply. Feeling ko, parang dalawang loop ng May-December affair ang 19 years na age gap. Deal-breaker 'yon for me.

And then, 'yon na nga, nag-comment sya sa post ko and he messaged me sa FB Messenger.

At first, hesitant akong kausapin sya. Because kilala ko ang sarili ko. He had the qualities na gusto ko sa isang guy at kapag naging kachat ko sya in private, alam kong there was a big possibility na mahulog ako sa kanya. And I could not afford that to happen dahil sa age difference namin. Hindi biro ang 19 years.

Pero wala eh. I was desperate.

Long story short, tinulungan ako ni P na makapag-download ng Autocad software and I said ilibre ko nalang sya ng kape kapag nagawi ako ng Manila. He was working in MoA back then. I asked him kung anong gusto nyang kape. He replied, dark mocha or java chips. So I said, okay, dark mocha or java chips then, kung kelan man 'yon.

Two weeks later, nag-message uli si P. Magbabakasyon daw silang buong family ng isang linggo, Cebu-Bohol, kung pwede daw kaming magkita. He knew na taga-Cebu ako. He asked for my number. Syempre binigay ko. Nakakahiya naman, baka isipin nyang ayoko syang ilibre ng kape. Inisip ko nun, pwede namang sa may airport kami magkita, may Starbucks dun.

On the day na pabalik na sila ng Manila, nag-text si P, they were on their way to the airport na daw. May time pa naman daw kaming magkita kung okay lang sa akin na puntahan sya sa airport. That was around 10pm na.

Matagal akong nag-isip hanggang sa nakapag-decide akong hindi sya i-reply. I was not backing out from my promise na i-treat sya for coffee. I just didn't trust myself. Baka kasi kapag nagkita kami, hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko and I might do something stupid, like hilahin sya to the nearest motel.

Kinabukasan, maaga akong pumasok sa chatroom. P was there. Ako ang unang nag-message sa kanya. I felt guilty for not replying to his text the night before. And I lied to him. I told him naubusan ako ng load kaya hindi ako nakapag-reply sa text nya. He said it was okay but hoped to meet me in person soon. At dun nagsimulang masira ang pader na matagal kong iningatang itayo sa pagitan naming dalawa.

From my dummy to my real FB. And from FSS chatroom to iMessage. Naging daily na ang mga messages namin sa isa't-isa. At nag-level up na kami sa pagiging wholesome to naughty chats. Until, we agreed na lumipad ako ng Manila, three months later.

Sinundo ako ni P sa airport. Awkward nung una. Pero P handled the situation like a pro. Hawak sa kamay, hila ng bag. Parang boyfriend. And it felt good.

One week din ako sa Manila nun. And P spent his nights with me, day shift sya nun. Of course, we had sex, every day and the sex was great. Siguro dahil alam kong mahal ko na sya nun at matagal na din 'yong nangyari sa amin ni Kent.

And yeah, nilibre ko sya ng kape sa Starbucks, and more.

Medyo mahilig si P sa dirty sex. Sa kanya ko unang naranasan ang kinakagat ang utong. At first, nawawalan ako ng gana kasi masakit eh. Pero nasanay din ako and sometimes, I would ask him to do it. Sa kanya ko din naranasan ang lumunok ng dura. He was pumping while nakasampay ang mga paa ko sa balikat nya when he spit into my mouth. I didn't have time to process what he just did, nalunok ko agad.

Umuwi ako ng Cebu nun na nag-iba ang pananaw sa salitang kantot. I used to be just vanilla. Until P came along.

The following month, si P naman ang pumuntang Cebu, overnight, for a really good fuck. Uminom pa sya ng Robust nun na hindi naman umepekto. Kung bakit, hindi namin alam.

Then July came, medyo nag-level up na pati ang puso ni P. Lumip...

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sinner69
March 28, 2021 (16 days ago)

time well spent reading your confession.

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MidLifeCrisis
March 28, 2021 (16 days ago)

Thanks much for dropping by :)

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Einard
March 28, 2021 (16 days ago)

Si P pala ung itinatanong kagabi. P for Palakantot. ✌😂

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Batanglagim
March 28, 2021 (15 days ago)

Owww ang lalim nun ndi ko maarok.. Masyadong komplikado lagi ang luvlyf MO may otor. Pero Sabi nga Nila kapag nasaktan ka dahil sa pagibig., Katotohanan Lang na nag mahal ka. Hope na makita u na si ryt guy for you mam.. Sayang ndi aq nag pursue bilang isang IT.. Nakita ko kasi wala aq future dun.,at wala hilig si computer sa akin.. Hahaha! D Sana may chance din makapasok sa life u.. Charrr.. Hope na may MAbasa pa aq na love story u ulit mam..

Never afraid to try something new because life gets boring when you stay within the limits of what you already new...

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MisterND
March 28, 2021 (15 days ago)

Ahh kaya pala ganun.... First time ko lang basahin yung confession mo pero punong puno ng emotion ang story na ito. Hanngang sa susunod na confession mo

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Bebeko
March 29, 2021 (15 days ago)

There's always hello and goodbye. You had a good run. As I always say, "wag mapagod mainlab kasi masaya pero maging handa rin sa posibleng lungkot". Part na yan ng cycle ng pag-ibig.

Good luck, panyera. Pwede rin tayong magvideo call kung gusto mo😂😂😂

"Freedom is absolutely necessary for the progress in science and the liberal arts." - Baruch Spinoza

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MidLifeCrisis
March 29, 2021 (15 days ago)

Hahaha ayaw 🤣 Baka pagdamitin mo ako 😂

Next time hello nalang dapat, wala ng goodbye 😁

And.I.Care.Not.

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KentPent
March 29, 2021 (15 days ago)

SINO SI KENT?

She's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, hers and mine are the same.

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MidLifeCrisis
March 29, 2021 (15 days ago)

Galit? 🤣🤣🤣

Nasa 8/9 si Kent 😅

And.I.Care.Not.

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KentPent
March 30, 2021 (14 days ago)

Joke lang ma'am MLC hahaha I enjoyed your confessions. Thank you po!

She's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, hers and mine are the same.

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MidLifeCrisis
March 30, 2021 (13 days ago)

Hahahaha! Salamat at naenjoy mong magbasa kahit walang detailed sex scenes.  Yaan mo pakilala ko si Kent one of these days 🤣🤣🤣 Madalang na syang pumapasok dito. Sa TG ko lang sya nakakausap kapag di sya busy.

And.I.Care.Not.

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Doubletiger228
March 30, 2021 (14 days ago)

Binasa ko lahat ng confessions mo, masaya, masalimuot at alam ko na nag enjoy ka rin every
Minute of it. Di pa naman katapusan ng mundo, marami pang pagkakataon, wag mo lang isasara ang pintuan at alam ko magmamahal ka pa rin. Kung sino man sya, darating na lang yon.  Yong mga dumating sa buhay mo, pinagtagpo lang kayo pero di tinadhana.

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Sixty9_sapat_na
March 31, 2021 (13 days ago)

Naiyak naman ako

“Nothing is impossible, the word itself says ‘I’m possible’!”

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