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The Old Songs

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Confession: True Story, Taglish · Categories: Romance · Tags:
Date: Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)


I met her in a chat site. I saw a new name in the list, welcomed her sa main chat room but she did not respond. I sent her a "Hi!" in PM, she responded with a ":)".

I followed with a "What brought you here?", hanggang sa nauwi na sa isang conversation until she said "Goodbye for now.".

It was just a short chat. Wala pang 30 minutes. More on how she got to the site lang yung pinag-usapan namin. We didn't even ask our personal details like real name, age or location. The usual Q's sa ganung place. Pero tumatak yun sakin. I don't know why pero di na sya nawala sa isip ko after we talked.

The following day, I was expecting for her. I waited. Pero wala. The next day after that, wala pa rin. Then on the 3rd day, just when I was starting to forget about her, I saw the familiar name again.

Me: You're back

Her: :)

Me: How are you?

Her: Fine

Her: You?

Me: Ok na rin.

Me: Nakausap na kasi kita ulit

Her: Haha

Me: Bakit ngayon ka lang?

Her: Umalis kami nung weekend kaya di ako naka OL

Me: I mean bakit ngayon ka lang dumating sa buhay ko?

Her: Haha

And it lead to hours of talk. Masarap kasi syang kausap. Hindi nakakabagot, hindi ko na kailangan mag-isip pa ng sasabihin. I can say whatever I want to say without worrying na baka ma-offend sya, ma-turnoff, or mawalan ng gana.
She just laughs at my jokes and punchlines, gets interested with my stories and even debates with me pag meron akong sinabing di sya agree.
She was the perfect chatmate.

For the next couple of days, sya lang halos yung kausap ko sa site na yun. Umabot na rin kami sa YM kasi ayaw namin maistorbo ng ibang chatters from that site.

Until time came na hindi na kami kuntento sa limited time namin sa chat site. Gusto namin na nagkakausap pa rin kami kahit hindi kami online.

Her: It's late na, I need to log out

Me: Oo nga. Ambilis ng oras.

Her: So bukas nalang ulit?

Me: I don't know kung aabutin ako ng bukas ng wala ka

Her: Haha. OA ka

Me: I'm really going to miss you

Her: Me too

Me: Text nalang kita?

Her: Sige :)

Then she gave me her number.
And it was a start of a deeper "relationship". Almost every minute kami nagpapadala ng text messages to each other. Mas alam pa namin yung ginagawa ng isa't-isa kesa sa mga taong nakapaligid samin.

Then one night, we were chatting both in the chat site and in YM nang maisipan kong tawagan sya.
Her phone rang 8 times before she answered. She said "Hello".
It was the first time that I heard her voice. Then I answered with "Hi". She asked why I called, I just said I wanna hear her voice.

Then silence...

Something caught my ears before hearing her voice again, "Anjan ka pa?".

"Yes" I replied.

"Bakit natahimik ka?" she asked.

"Pinapakinggan ko lang yung music mo." I answered.

Then I heard her giggle.
For the first time again...

"Ok. Makinig ka lang jan. May tatapusin lang ako."
"Ok." I said.
And for minutes, I just listened to the songs she's playing...

They were all old songs...

It became our habit. Tatawagan ko sya through YM or phone, we would talk for a few minutes, then we'll both listen to her playlist that was made up entirely of old songs.

I really don't like old songs before that.
They make me feel old. Parang baduy ang dating for someone like me.

But the thought of us listening to the same music together, coming from the same player makes me feel so close to her.

It gave me a certain satisfaction. Gave me comfort. I guess I'm starting to fall for her.
Or I already did.
I don't know.
Basta masaya ako whenever we're "together". And I can feel na ganun din sya.
We were "virtually" inseparable.

Then one day I asked her out. I wanted to meet her. I wanted to really be with her but she declined.
I didn't ask why.
Ayokong maging cause pa yun ng uneasiness nya sakin.

We went on with that routine for a couple of months more. Until one day, I asked her out again.
Then she finally said yes.
Tuwang tuwa ako nun. Di halos ako nakatulog sa sobrang excitement at kaba. Maraming ring tumakbo sa isip ko. Maraming "What if's".
But I set them all aside.

We would meet in a weeks' time.

Lalong naging madalas yung pagtawag ko sa kanya nun.
A few days before our date, may napansin akong iba sa kanya. It was the songs she's listening to. Hindi na sya old songs. They were new ones. Yung mga current song from current artists na maririnig mong pinapatugtog sa FM radio at mapapanood sa MTV.

I asked her why she changed her playlist, and she said she just wanted a change.

Then came the day. I was half an hour early in our meeting place which was a restaurant in a mall.
Bawat pumasok sa pinto tinitingnan kong mabuti. While rehearsing what to say in my mind.

Then someone caught my eye on the other side of the glass panel. It was a young lady seated on a wheelchair. With an older lady pushing behind her.
Dire-direcho sila sa pinto ng resto. A staff opened the door and greeted them. They stopped as soon as they were inside. Then palingon-lingon sila as if they were looking for someone.

I knew right then and there that it was her.
But my feet and legs don't seem to have the strength to stand up and approach her.

Parang biglang nawala lahat ng nararamdaman kong excitement na makilala at makasama sya. Ewan ko. I felt so disappointed.
Then I saw her took out her phone. Dialled then put it on her ear and waited.
I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. It's always in vibrate mode kasi ayokong nakakuha ng attention pag merong tumatawag or nagtetext.
I just let it ring. Then the vibrating stopped. And I saw he...

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Maximix
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

๐Ÿ’” ๐Ÿ˜ข

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Murmur
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

Boss tanong ko lang anong site yung pinagmeetan ninyo?

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Murmur
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

Wag na pala boss

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blackbadger12
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

old song is the best. kelan ko lang din realize. good story sana mahanap mo padin sya.

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wowmali
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

touching parang movie ....guilty feeling and sad...

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tandang_pananong
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

Bigat non brad...

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paulcaleb103106
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

tangina sakit :
ramdam ko yung pain mo
late na :(

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Einard
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

Brader nilabasan ako sa Confession mo, nilabasan ako ng luha. ๐Ÿ˜ข
Lalaki ka nga brader, physical attributes ang tinitingnan, at inayawan mo siya nung nakita mong may kakaiba sa kanya, ganun talaga tayong mga lalaki lalo na at bata ka pa siguro that time. Pero kapag nagkaedad ka pa ng konti, kapag nabawasan na ang libog mo sa katawan, mare-realize mo na mas mahalaga ung kasundo mo ang babae sa mga simpleng usapan kesa sa umaatikabong kantutan. Hay buhay, tagay pa brader...

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Mr.M
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

๐Ÿ’”

Minsan na namatay pero muli nabuhay

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pwede.ako.nalang
Wednesday, 14 October 2020 (5 days ago)

Nakaka guilty yun boss

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EarthMan100
Thursday, 15 October 2020 (5 days ago)

Ano title ng song?

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pitas123
Thursday, 15 October 2020 (4 days ago)

Ang bigat sa pakiramdam brad. Well I hope matagpuan mo ulit sya.

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MarkLee21
Thursday, 15 October 2020 (4 days ago)

Sir ask lng, pinost mo na to sa ibang site? Nabasa ko na kasi to dati eh... just saying..

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Guest0
Thursday, 15 October 2020 (4 days ago)

muntik na tumulo sipon ko pre.. buti nasinghot ko pabalik.. that was a sad story.. bigat bigat.. parang ngayon tuloy eh naiwan kang depressed and thinking of more what ifs kesa nung nag"yes" sya sa invitation mo to meet up... goodluck sa pagharap sa future...

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NotSoInocent
Thursday, 15 October 2020 (4 days ago)

Nakakaiyak naman ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

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MakabagongMariaClara
Sunday, 18 October 2020 (1 day ago)

๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ’”

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ma_bahaghari
Sunday, 18 October 2020 (1 day ago)

Awwww sad ๐Ÿ˜”

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Cutiebooba
Monday, 19 October 2020, 11:36 PM (5 hours ago)

Sometimes we get too shallow abt certain things its normal pero pag mahal mo mahal mo. Sana matagpuan mo ulit sya. Did u try replying to the email?

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