LUDUS And MANIA Sexventures: PROLOGUE
Confession: True Story, Taglish · Categories: First Time, Taboo, Toys and Masturbation · Tags: fetish, sexcapade, Incest, love, Lust, sex fantasy, sexperience, agape, storge, philia, eros, ludus, mania, pragma, filia, sexventure, child molestation
Date: June 16, 2020 (16 days ago)
I have been longing to confess these sexperiences since I got legally separated and perhaps can be free from its flirty and lustful hold in me. And, hopefully, some readers will be able to learn from it and perhaps avoid any mistakes in their sexual relationships.
Firstly, let me tell you about ME in a gist.
I am 50ish in age now. Separated in 1995. Has four (4) kids, young adults now living separate lives & families of their own. I am a college undergrad in a well-known university in Manila. I have worked here & there. Been to places here locally (may nunal ako sa talampakan kaya natural na gala) & worked in the Middle East for a dozen of years. I lived or stayed here & there in Metro Manila & CaLaBaRZon areas. I like a sense of adventure & controllable risk-taking. I am a Nomad. I live where my heart is, wherever it will lead me to.
I have my normal share of ups and downs in life and love. Always standing up when broken and broke (though there were times na sumusuko na rin ako but in the end tatayo pa to move on with life). I live simply. Not wanting much materially. I am not that ambitious but I am a dreamer still. I find contentment with what I have though I also wish sometimes for a bit more but never has it become an obsession.
Secondly, what is Ludus & Mania? Why do I identify myself with these terms?
Ludus and Mania are two (2) of the seven (7) categories of LOVE according to the Greek philosophers. (Though I read a blog here which says there are eight (8) categories but I will stick with what I know and familiar with. Since these seven are also included in that blog.)
The SEVEN (7) love categories that I know of are STORGE, PHILIA, LUDUS, EROS, MANIA, PRAGMA, and AGAPE (building up or maturing in that order).
1. STORGE is Familial Love. The love between family members. Parents-Children, Between Siblings. Grandparents-Grandchildren. Uncles/Aunts-Nephews/Nieces. Cousins. This is love in its purest. Love that begins at home. A healthy and peaceful home is a good place to nurture love. No lust involved. When lust (Ludus & Mania) is allowed to seep in, then it becomes taboo, incest, molestation, sexploitation, and forbidden love. (Meron akong kwento tungkol dito mamaya at sa susunod na kabanata nitong confessions ko.)
2. PHILIA (or FILIA) is Fraternal or Communal Love. The love existing among friends, brotherhood/fraternity, sisterhood/sorority, workmates, and neighborhood or community. This is the level where the next kind of love blooms which can now lead to physical & sexual intimacy. This love is the foundation of a strong love affair (relationship) or marriage.
3. LUDUS is Playful or Flirty Love. The developmental stage of physical intimacy & awareness of sexuality. The kilig factor. Sometimes associated with puppy love & crushes. That kilite or tingling sensation you feel when parts of your fingers, hands, arms, elbows, knees, thighs or feet touches another body. Yung feeling na nakukuryente ka especially if it's your crush or 'love' interest. Those who are in this kind of love engages in and addicted to phonesex, textsex, chatsex, or videosex of non-committed lovers. A No-Label kind of love. Second only to MANIA in terms of lustfulness.
Dito ko nasimulan iexploit at maranasan ang sensuality or sexuality of the girls I encountered in my sexventures. Throughout these sexperiences I learned more of mine as well. More on this as I tell you my confessions about these sexperiences.
4. EROS is Sensual or Passionate Love. The love between BF/GF, married couples, live-in partners. In this stage, both have decided to be exclusive to one another. Sharing their life to fulfill a dream of having a family. Having children. This love can bloom into PRAGMA or doomed by LUDUS or MANIA. (Since I am legally separated, I would like to keep my former married life private & protect the identity of my ex-wife or ex-livein partner, and will not be sharing the sexperiences I have in this stage.)
5. MANIA is Lustful or Obsessive Love. The type of love that is selfish and possessive. A kind of love that is self-pleasuring and overcontrolling. The self-worth of an individual can be measured on how one masters this type of love. Those who dwell on sex fantasies and fetishes have a strong inclination to this kind of maniacal love.
Eto na siguro ung madedefine ko na maiintindihan ng lahat. Purong Libog lang ang uri na pagmamahal ito. Dito na papasok ung mayroong FuBu, Secret Lover, Cheating Spouse, Friends with Benefits, at kung ano-ano pang ipapangalan o 'label' sa ganitong uri...
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i am mania. obsessive & lustful.
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