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Date: February 8, 2020 (1 month ago)


Nagsimula ako bilang Wittyfatgirl dito sa FSS ilang taon na rin ang nakakaraan. Nag sign up ako dito para lang magkaron ng mga kausap kasi madalas na feeling ko mag isa lang ako, gusto ko lang na ma feel na hindi ako magisa na kahit pano kahit sa virtual world lang meron akong kasama.

Madami akong nakilala na mga naging tunay ko na kaibigan kahit hindi ko pa sila nakikita ng personal, mga taong nakakausap ko pag gusto kong umiyak at maglabas ng sama ng loob sa mundo. Those were the days na palagi ako umiiyak, na para bang yung puso ko puro sakit lang ang laman.

Sa kakapilit ko humanap ng taong mag validate ng existence ko, palagi lang akong nasasaktan dahil na rin sa kalokohan ko. Madali ako ma attach at lahat ng taong umalis sa buhay ko kahit bago ko pa lang kakilala iniyakan ko. Yun ang problema, na aattach ako pero sila hindi.

Recently, na realize ko na kailangan ko muna ayusin yung sarili ko bago ako umasa na may dadating sa buhay ko, someone na hindi na aalis, someone na tatanggapin ako ng buong buo. I need to forgive myself sa mga maling bagay na nagawa ko sa buhay, I need to accept myself for who and what I am kasi hindi ko yun pwede iasa sa ibang tao.

I always talk about self love then I realized na wala pala ako nun, how can I expect other people to like me if ako mismo hindi ko gusto yung sarili ko. That I always live in this fantasy land kung saan mas maganda ako, mas matalino, lugar kung saan I don't feel insufficient.

I don't know why posted this here,...

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Yvonniekimsori
February 8, 2020 (1 month ago)

Hmm. Have you tried to meditate? You can always ask others even your friends. Identify muna ang problem kung saan tapos troubleshoot kung paano aayusin at gagawan ng solusyon. This is how we learn from the past or else you are doomed to repeat it over and over again.

Experience is the greatest kamasutra teacher

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10rycoh
February 8, 2020 (1 month ago)

i can be your friend.. :)

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February 9, 2020 (1 month ago)

Find some one who you can talk to every time you're feeling lonesome. You dont want it to get worst and lead to depression . Keep fighting find happiness and purpose in life you can do it.

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altds
February 9, 2020 (1 month ago)

Always remember you are worth it. Baka makahelp,  since alam mo na or narealized mo na some of your weakness try na hanapin din yung strength mo. Don ka kumapit. AJA!

"We ignore truths for temporary happiness."

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istaklang
February 9, 2020 (1 month ago)

Pray, He is always, listening!

God Loves you!! ♥️

Limited Edition.

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Swabeboy
February 10, 2020 (1 month ago)

Pareho tayo, tsaka aloner ako

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