I Thought I Was Saved

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Date: December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)


Hi! I've got a new confession to make.

The last time i posted here was about my ex boyfriend who only used me as a rebound, who took my Vcard (pero never nilabasan sa kanya ) and left me.

Hi co-members of FSS!

Around march 2019, I met a man through a co-worker.

He seems nice.

On that same day, they invited me for dinner.

I agreed.

Now, it's kinda late. Wala na akong masakyan pauwi.

He invited us to sleep in the hotel where he is currently staying.

I agreed since tatlo kami.

When we got to his hotel room, he was uneasy. He keeps on going inside/outside of his room.

His friend (girl) and me, stayed inside his room. We were already sleepy.

Dawn came, it was really cold because of the aircon. I can no longer bear with it. I woke up. He was still awake. He asked me if i was feeling cold. I said yes. He gave me a back hug. It was fine but kinda awkward.

He then started kissing my back. It was sensational. I never felt that with ex. I got excited. Matagal na rin kasi akong walang contact. I just let him continue what he was doing. I am savoring it.

Dumating sa point na di ko na kaya ang sensation. Humarap ako sa kanya. We kissed. He ate me.

I came for the very first time.

The orgasm was so euphoric. I couldn't contain it.

He tried to penetrate me. Nahirapan siya kasi masyadong masikip. Maliit lang kasi kay Ex. He failed to insert 'his' in a spoon position. He then changed our position to missionary. He succeeded.

Pero we cannot move properly. Katabi lang namin ang kaibigan niya. We stopped because i was afraid na magising yung kaibigan niya.

Tumalikod ako sa kanya. I felt ashamed. Nakakahiya. Hindi man lang umabot ng 24 oras, bumigay na ako.

I was crying because of that. I felt cheap. Morning came, umuwi na ako diretso.

He texted me. After a couple of months, naging kami.

But during our relationship, parang wala din akong jowa. I felt like i was still alone. He will just contact me pag may kailangan siya. That's it.

September came..

I received messages from a dummy account.

It contains a lot of his screenshots from his account.

Somebody hacked his account.

What i saw was heartbreaking..

He was in a relationship with another person..

A guy

Yung bang maitatanong mo talaga sa sarili mo kung saan ba ako nagkulang.

Bakit ito nangyari sa akin?

Yung bang mas okay na yung babae yung 'iba' niya pero hindi eh.

It was a freaking fucking guy!

I immediately broke up with him.

Kasi within our relationship, he proposed. Suki na ako dun sa bahay nila. Paborito pa ako ng both parents niya.

Pero it turns out na bi/gay siya?

Like WTF?!

I brokw up with him during our monthsary.

Yes, i did that.

I sacrificed so much for him.

I made so much efforts.

I gave so much love.

I trusted him.

But then again, pag nasa maling tao ka, they will not appreciate it.

So eto na naman ako.

Move on na naman.

Back to zero.

Dalawa na ang ex ko pero di man lang umabot ng pasko ni isa

Update kay first ex:

Binalikan niya yung ex niya and they broke uo. Nakahanap na ng iba si ex at ikakasal na siya. #engaged

Well, i am happy for him. Pero wala pa rin kaming closure.

Maniniwala na talaga ako sa kasabihang "no closure means closure".

Update...

About the Author :

Joined: February 1, 2013 (6 years old)
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I still believed that someday, someone will love me the way I deserved to be love 😊
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darkside086
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

meron talagang ganon naging kayo pero hindi itinadhana pero atleast natikman nio isat isa 🤣

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

😂😂😂

I am resilient 💪

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sweetkiss69
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

Bata ka pa nman.makikilala mo rin yung right guy na pahahalagahan ka..

u don't know me until u not owe me!!!!

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victoro
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

Dadating din sya wag ka mainip, magkaiba ang mabuti sa mabait kaya kung ako sayo mabuti ang hanapin mo.

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utoi20
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

Ayos ah... Stay strong! Parekoi.

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Mr.M
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

The right 1 will come;have faith in God and Life.

Married yet related to many who try to

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Thank you so much po 😊

I am resilient 💪

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peejaytetz9693
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

That was messed up.

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Nagunaw ang mundo ko 😩

I am resilient 💪

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Longing
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

Kala mo talaga sya na tapos eeport ka mag lalaan ng oras at libog tapos bandang huli may surpresa. Nakaka frustrate noh.

Pokpok ka?

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Heart shattering 💔

I am resilient 💪

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Testtest
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

Kantot sarap eh

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Sam_071
December 28, 2019 (29 days ago)

Ako apply sana.. Kaso di kita na pm. Friends lng daw ang pwede magpm sayo.

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Hahahaha! Really?
Open to everyone ang private message settings ko 😵

I am resilient 💪

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mjjhay
December 28, 2019 (28 days ago)

hayyy buhayyy

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User Not Found
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Well, I got confused. Your gender indicates your a male, while your writing says you’re not. So, which is which, really?

It seems to me, you’re having two X’es and one Y.  To illustrate:

(2x + y = ??) 😅

Your relationship problem resembles the above algebraic expression; to balance your equation, you just need a constant for an answer.

Technically speaking, you can apply any number of your choice to complete the equation. I wish you all the lucks and may you derive into a “positive answer”.

Ganun talaga, Ms. Curious_10. Life is full of ups and downs. Sometimes it seems questionable. It is full of mystery and at one point we couldn’t figure out the answer. Life however, goes on.

So, I hope in your next relationship you could positively obtain the missing piece of your equation.

Just look around. Don’t lose hope. Your Romeo is maybe just busy lurking around.

Looking for applicants? I’m looking for a decent job. Are we on the same puzzle?

Just kidding! Happy Holidays.  
😂😂

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

A LOL and a thank you from me.
I know maghirap maghanap ng maayos na trabaho. I feel you. Kakahire lang din kasi sakin.
May you find the job that pays well and i hope hindi toxic yung mga tao.

I am resilient 💪

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ObiWan
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Normal yang short relationships sa una. You are still in the process of discovering yourself and adding the burden of involving another person into your life during that time complicates it more. You will.make mistakes and you'll learn, (hopefully, otherwise, you'll be making the same mistakes) and the next time you try to integrate a person into your life you'll do better. Ganun lanv naman yan, love is not a sure thinf, you gamble everytime you put your heart out. The gains are huge if you hit the jackpot but, very few people do that on their first tries.

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

In every relationship that i had, i learn something from it. I hope next time na magmahal ako, i hope it will be the last time.

I am resilient 💪

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marco69hot
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

hi happy new year cguro hindi pa dumarating ung tamang tao para sayo....manilawa kba kahit may asawa n ang isang tao may darating at darating na magmamahal pa din xa sa iba sayo pa kaya na single about sa sex nmn normal nmn sa tao malibog wala nmn sa tagal o bilis un eh ang mahalaga with care at may respeto ...pray lng lahat tayo may nakatadhana

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Happy new year!
I have been praying that may God mold me into someone na pinili niyang tao para sa akin. I'll have faith 💪

I am resilient 💪

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Rinkushi
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Yung tipong may third party pero yung third party is same gender as your partner. Literal na napapa-wtf ka nalang talaga lol. Tamang landi lang and it will come.

Sorry, di kasi ako naniniwala na  darating din yung right person if maghihintay ka lang. Kung may gusto ka kasi, dapat hinahanap yan at pinagsisikapan. That's just my opinion.  Skl.

Left to enter Right

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Rinkushi
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Expectations nalang kalaban mo after. May mga factors din kasi tayo na kinoconsider kapag namimili ng partner and okay lang yun gurl. Tao lang tayo.

Left to enter Right

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Kilroy
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Volunteer here :)

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Yvonniekimsori
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

You go girl. Wag mong hayaang saktan ka nila. Mga lalaki lang yan. Marami pang ibang darating

Experience is the greatest kamasutra teacher

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Salamat po. Nakakadala na din kasi eh. Minahal mo naman ng husto, nag effort, nag sacrifice ka na at lahat lahat pero di pa rin sapat.
Nganga 💔😵

I am resilient 💪

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metanoia.antoine
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Trying to PM kaso ayaw. Haha!

Life goes on. Darating din yan. On the most unexpected place on an unexpected time (Malay mo dito pala sa FSS 😅😅😅)

Hope to get in touch with you.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year too! O:-)

Confessed Sex-Addict, Clinically-Diagnosed Bipolar, Recovering Voyeur, Frotteur, Paraphillic, & Maniac. Into promiscuities of all sorts. . . . .

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curious_10
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

Thank you so much people 😊😊😊
The best pa din mag advise ang mga tao rito sa FSS.. 💪

Btw, yung gender ko kasi, mali ang pagkakalagay ko nung nag sign up ako. Kaya i cannot change it from male to FEMALE.

AGAIN, thank you so much for the advise/feedback 😘

Happy new year!

Ps: I was born January 1.
#MsNewYear po ako 😊

I am resilient 💪

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darkside086
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

ang saya naman ng birthday niya sakto sa putukan🤣

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Jecoloco
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

So ayun, dadagdag na rin ako haha. Life is just full of unexpected moments kasi. May iba na malungkot, may iba na masaya, may iba na pagsisisihan mo after mangyari, at meron din namang mga moments na all of the above. Pag nasaktan, move on, kahit pa gano katagal. Pag nagmahal, ibigay lahat, kasi moments yun eh. Pag masaya, i enjoy yung moment. Pag nag lasing, siguraduhing di susuka 😂. Yun lang naman. Life is uncertain, and we fear what we do not know. Even so, we live and let life take its course. (Aapply na din ako hahahahahha!)

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Einard
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

H A Y. Wala ako masabi. Siguro kailangan natin tanggapin life as it is, as it happens. We could only hope for that day, that day...
Honestly ayoko nakakaalam ng mga kwento na ginalaw ng bf tapos iniwan. Sarap pumatay ng taong ganyan. Hostessmother nila!

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Einard
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

H A Y. Wala ako masabi. Siguro kailangan natin tanggapin life as it is, as it happens. We could only hope for that day, that day...
Honestly ayoko nakakaalam ng mga kwento na ginalaw ng bf tapos iniwan. Sarap pumatay ng taong ganyan. Hostessmother nila!!

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Einard
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

P.S. Sama na rin natin ung mga Piolos at Luisa Manzanos.

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Bebeko
December 29, 2019 (28 days ago)

You just need to move on and continue to find your happiness. Along the way ay may mga pagdadaanan talaga. Good luck.

Happy New Year!

"Freedom is absolutely necessary for the progress in science and the liberal arts." - Baruch Spinoza

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Istupher
December 30, 2019 (27 days ago)

Darating din yan tsong. Been in a 10 yr relationship. Kasal at anak na lang kulang, nagkahiwalay pa. Then i met another girl na willing ako sumugal ulit, potek, di rin ubra. Well... hanap ulit. Life goes on.

Nemo Dat Quod Non Habent

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KubiMaru
January 3, 2020 (23 days ago)

Kasali kana rin sa smhan ng mga iniwan bgo mag pasko nyan mam. Haha

Mahalin muna ntin mga sarili ntin baka sakali pag gnon may magmahal satin na papahalagahan tyo gaya ng pagpapahalaga ntin sa mga ex nten.

Libog is the Key:-)

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