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Years Of Existence

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Date: November 7, 2022 (25 days ago)


Author's Note: Pahiram ako ng tuhod. Preferably slightly-used, teenage knees. Hahaha!

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I am in the last leg of my 20's. Damn, nakaka-sentimetal pala kapag nagba-backtrack ka sa mga nangyari sa buhay mo. I did a recap of the changes that happened in my life, mula 'nung una ko itong gawin hanggang sa maging normal na lang sa'kin.

1. Work, Work, Work

I was already working during my teens. I was born to a middle class family kung saan nabibili namin ang lahat ng kailangan (needs) namin, may konting mga gusto (wants) pero hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay makukuha namin ang gusto namin. I worked on fast food chains and photocopy shops and before I knew it, I was taking the CSC Sub-Pro exam annd then I became a public servant while studying... or should I say, stu-dying. It was hell. But it all worked out in the end.

'Nung araw na naging ganap na working-student ako, I was worried na hindi ko malalampasan. I was worried that I might just end up working na lang kasi nga sabi ng nakararami, once kumita ka na itatabla mo na ang lahat para lang mabuhay. It felt weird when I received my first salary. Hahaha, while writing this nakumpara ko 'yung difference ng sahod ko noon sa ngayon. Kahit maliit lang ang sweldo ko that time, masayang-masaya ako 'nun. Now, being old enough (not that old, for the record), I guess I kind like the idea na lang na may sinasandalan akong permanent na trabaho while doing things that I like on the side or cooking up some set of skills. Right now, it feels like I can do anything that I wanted to do 'nung teenager ako up to my mid-20's. It's the mindset of not letting my age get it the way of doing things that I always wanted. Work during the peak of my youth has served me the mindset and maturity to last for many years.

2. Adulting < Growing up

Hmm. Adulting. We romanticize adulting like it's a trophy. It's not. 'Yung sinasabi nating adulting matagal na nating ginagawa 'yan. And truth be told, alam nating wala tayong kawala sa proseso na 'to and it's a good thing to know kasi it's a new set of skill eh. Big tasks sa umpisa pero kapag ginawa na nang paulit-ulit, it turns into a regular one.

I stopped calling it "adulting" 'nung paulit-ulit na akong naglalaba ng damit ko; 'nung umpisa I had to handwash my clothes every 3 days then I got tired and smarter, hahaha I bought a washing machine. I now wash it weekly. 'Nung umpisa mahirap, "adulting" talaga. Then I realized na kailangan ko talagang gawin, it became a weekly regular task na lang.

I had to pay the bills. It's enough to pay bills, oo, mahirap magbayad ng bills. But to pay it on time or earlier is even harder. Peksman, I had to remember a lot of due dates para makapagbayad. 'Nung una sinasabi ko lagi sa sarili ko, "it's adulting time, I'm paying my bills on time." Me joking around with the "adulting" attitude isn't going to cut it so I stopped calling it that. Kailangan ko talagang magbayad, tapos ang usapan.

I've been doing it since I was a teenager, so it's not new to me. "Tasks" na lang tawag ko and I find it to be a light task kapag naka-set ang attitude ko that these things are "simple tasks".

3. Finances, monetary

Raise your hand if you're struggling with your finances. *Raises my hand*

Yep. I struggle with my finances, too. I still do. But from what I've learned from being in a shit-ton of loan in my early 20's is the knowledge on when and where to spend it. Hanggang leeg ang utang ko 'nung nag-aaral pa ako. napaka-rare na makatanggap ako ng buong sweldo. Sabi nga nila sa office namin noon, hindi ka normal na empleyado kapag wala kang loan. So I loaned from different coops, banks and people. Most of it was used for paying my tuition fees, the rest hindi ko alam kung saan napunta. Kapag pakiramdam kong makakaluwag na ako, nangangati akong mangutang ulit.

Now that I'm in the end of my 20's, umiiwas na ako sa mga utang but I have to admit that I am always tempted to use my card para sa ibang bagay. The trick is not letting the bank upgrade my credit limit hahaha! I use my card for convenience siyempre, 'di na kailangan magdala ng cash and I also have the option to pay it monthly lalo kapag medyo pricey 'yung binili. I call myself out kapag nagiging gastador ako pero minsan I just have to give in, iniisip ko na lang na regalo ko 'to sa sarili ko. I learned that I didn't have to be stingy, I just needed to be wise. Money-wise.

4. Dreams, meron pala ako nito?!

"You can be whatever you want to be... You just have to believe."

Lagi kong naririnig at nababasa 'yung phrase na 'yan. While it is true that you can be whatever you want to be, it often doesn't tell you the struggles of attaining your dreams. And don't get me started sa last part, mahirap maniwala sa sarili sa panahon ngayon. I believe in myself, alright... But for the most part, not so much. May kanya-kanya kasi tayong galing, I might excel in some areas where others don't and vice versa. Kaya hindi talaga makukuha ang isang bagay ng tiwala lang sa sarili.

Aaminin ko, may kati akong gustong-gusto kong kamutin noon pa. Nakita ko 'yung pagkakataon ko ngayon so I took it. I started with little steps, I doubted myself many times before I believed that I can and will survive in pursuing my dreams. Yuck, to think na I made a playlist of songs para ma-boost ang sarili ko sa ginagawa ko hahaha.

I learned that age is not a hindrance in chasing your dreams, but I also had to take in the fact that time is an enemy dressed as a friend. I might not be able to do this...

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somebodyuused2know
November 7, 2022 (24 days ago)

Wow, ang suerte ng magiging girlfriend mo. Wait mo makagraduate dowter ko, ireto kita, pretty and brainy yun, tanungin mo pa si Admin Midz at BV. 😂. Seriously, this piece is a refreshing read. Cheers to you! 🥂

"You are my lesson learned"

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November 7, 2022 (24 days ago)

Hahahaha sistah, pagka grad ni Inday, baka naglaho na si KP sa FSS nun. May nakita na iba 🤣

Sa pretty and brainy, syempre mana sayo pagka brainy. Sa pretty? Hmmmm… Babawi ako 🤣😈😜

Pero mana sayo mata ni Inday. Oh sige na nga, mana na din sayo pagka pretty 😂 Ayyyy sistah, may naalala ako. Pero sa Messenger ko na sasabihin 🤣🤣🤣

It’s okay if you don’t like me. I was not born to impress you.

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somebodyuused2know
November 7, 2022 (24 days ago)

😂😂😂😂, grabiii ka sistah, geh, nakabawi ka na hahaha.

Ayy, oo nga, kung good catch si otor sigurado marami nakapila😁

"You are my lesson learned"

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