Ang Buhay Ay Isang Pagsusulit

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Date: June 25, 2019 (4 months ago)

This is non erotic I just felt like writing this now. So please excuse sa typos Cellphone gamit ko.

Years ago, I posted my hatred no, my grudge? Ano ba pinakamabigat na word for hatred? I posted my hatred against my father. Now, it sounds like a childish rant for me. I was immature I have to admit.

If you ask me how I feel about my dad now? I love him soooo much. He's still alive and lives in the province with my mom and 2 sisters. We visit them as much as possible because his health is deteriorating. Why not send him to the hospital? He does not want to. Ayaw niyang makabitan ng kung anu-anu just to live. If the Lord calls him daw, he is ready to leave.
For us we are not yet ready to let him go. But who are we to stop a God?

"The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then, given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson."(by Tom Bodett) It is so true. I've learned to forgive and love with my experiences kay dad. It was hard. I am not saying that I am already a pro when it comes to forgiveness. But for me the first step to forgiveness is Acceptance. Acceptance that you hold a grudge against that person.

Once you accepted na hate mo na siya the forgiveness process will start. Some will take long, some take it shorter. (Lucky for those who forgive easily.) There is no rush in forgiveness, but the longer it takes you to forgive, the longer and the heavier the burden will be.

Marami naman ang nag comment ng advices nila. But Mr. M' advice stuck. Once you forgive you will be free. And yes, I am free of my hatred now.

I remember I ranted about my dad na ako palagi yung tinatawag na mautusan sa mga random errands para sa kanya. One time I asked him "Bakit ako?", my sister was listening. She told me later, "Ole, tinitignan niya kung napatawad mo na siya. Sinusubukan niya kung may care ka pa rin sa kanya. He is trying to see if you still hate him."

My regret now is he can't hear me say I have forgiven and love him. He is still alive but he can't hear anymore. I can't even write like before, he can't read my letters anymore. All I can do is to let him feel my love by following his simple paglalambing. He can talk but its starting to get blurry. Hindi ko alam kung kelan mag sasayonara si dad.

I was so ungrateful amd immature I have to admit. If you ask me now? How was my dad as a Father? He was not a perfect person or father. But still, he was the best dad for me. All I remember now is how sweet my dad was.
Sino sa i yo nakaranas na gawan ng baon ni tatay? My dad did. He always checked kung baon din akong water. He was a sweet dad in his own way. I was...

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June 25, 2019 (4 months ago)

You're right....but life isn't a big test only it is also a long long ang never ending journey na Tayo ang mamimili Kung saan Tayo pupunta at Kung kelan Tayo titigil...the good thing is we're all still alive and we have still chance  to change our destination...peace be with you madam!!!

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June 25, 2019 (4 months ago)

Tama ren naman po kayo sir :)
Bakit naman po peace? Ndi mo naman ako inaaway o ano. 😁 All is well sir. Thanks for taking the time to read.

The best eraser in the world is a good night's sleep. ~ OA Battista

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June 25, 2019 (4 months ago)

It was a good read and thank you for sharing... and i'm happy that you were able to sort out your feelings and find forgiveness.

Nemo Dat Quod Non Habent

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June 25, 2019 (4 months ago)

Totoo, ang buhay talaga ay isang pagsusulit. Pero sa bandang dulo, isa lang ang hangad natin: ang pumasa. Papasa tayo, tiwala lang.

I'm a teacher, and everything else's second

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June 26, 2019 (4 months ago)

Good self-realization. Don't be too hard on yourself. Walang perfect na relasyon. Walang perfect na tatay at anak. Lalo sa age gap dahil nagkakaroon palagi ng misunderstanding.

Wag na ikahiya yung rant dahil mas naintindihan mong mabuti ang lahat  dahil dumaan ka sa episode na yan. Continue to love and inspire people.

"Freedom is absolutely necessary for the progress in science and the liberal arts." - Baruch Spinoza

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June 26, 2019 (4 months ago)

Letting go is better than holding on,less burden to carry on.Sure there are some that you should'nt but those are the ones that have value of a lesson.May you continue in moving on and 1 day you'll be in that place like every man is expected to be ...A FATHER,that's when you can apply those lessons you learned the hard way.Good luck

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June 26, 2019 (4 months ago)

Maraming salamat Sir Bebeko and Mr. M for taking the time to read and share your words of wisdom.

(*^3^)/~☆ flying kiss sa mga charismatic tatays ng FSS

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