Him And Her... Again

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Date: May 13, 2019 (13 days ago)


HER

I saw him again last night.

I looked at him and smiled tentatively. He barely looked at me, didn't even acknowledge my presence. I tried to shrug the feeling off and just continued with my drink. I turned back my attention to friends and laughed as if the whole world depended on it. Inside, my heart was starting to fall apart… Slowly.

The night progressed with scarcely a word to each other. My eyes would wander towards him when I know he's not looking. He's having fun, I thought. He's quiet at times, though.

I wonder, does he think of me? I devised ways to be near him, to stay close to him but all in vain. All I got was a very cold reception. I honestly didn't know what to do or how to feel. But, hey, I managed to mask my feelings with the sound of my laughter.

It was then a male friend wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him. He nuzzled the side of my neck. I let him. I let him see what my friend was doing. Our eyes met. What did I see? Was it pain? Jealousy? Was he hurting? Thoughts ran in my head. Should I ask my friend to stop and let go? Or should I let him be? Why is he getting so affected by my friend's actions? Or am I just imagining things?

And it was time for him to go. I wanted to tell him to stay. I wanted to tell him, "Don't go." But I didn't. He hugged me, and I felt the coldness in his touch. I swallowed hard, blinked back the threatening tears hugged him back and whispered, "Take care".

Why don't you tell me how you feel?

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HIM

She was there.

When I came into the room, I saw her. I saw her smile but I averted my gaze. Her smile faltered when I pretended not to see her. I brushed it off and went to my friends. I could hear her having fun. So far, so good, I thought.

I tried my best not to approach her that night. I avoided any attempts of conversation with her. To make things more believable, I begged off from talking with anyone. I told them I was just tired. I would smile inwardly everytime she laughs and smiles. Her laugh is so infectious that you can't help but smile.

She would sometimes sit beside me or just be near me. I wanted so bad to touch her, to be like how we use to be, but I steeled myself. I tried to be indifferent. But her scent, God! It makes me want to make her mine alone.

Suddenly, a male friend casually wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him. She tilted her head slightly to allow him to nuzzle her neck. Our eyes locked briefly. But what was that I saw? Did she smirk? Was she challenging me? What's this I feel? I couldn't seem to concentrate. My mind.. I'm confused. My heart.. Is it breaking? I want to be him. I want to be the one with her in my arms, inhaling her sweet fragrance. Argh! Why?

And so I decided to leave. I ha...

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oli_ver
May 13, 2019 (13 days ago)

That thing called ego.... it is better to swallow your pride than asking later 'what if'....... sinayang ang pagkakataon...

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Crystalite
May 13, 2019 (13 days ago)

Did you read the firat part? Hehehe

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Crystalite
May 13, 2019 (13 days ago)

*first

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jefftdr
May 14, 2019 (12 days ago)

Willing kaya si Her igive up ano man meron sya para kay Him (or vice versa).

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Crystalite
May 14, 2019 (12 days ago)

Would you?

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loque
May 15, 2019 (11 days ago)

Kailangan kasi nating maging responsable sa pagdedesisyon. Mahirap ang pagtataya sa mga bagay lalo na kung may maapektuhan na ibang tao. At kung mapagdesisyunan ba, kaya rin bang pangatawanan?

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MavyBee
May 15, 2019 (11 days ago)

Mag comment daw ako. Sabi ni ate shy

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Crystalite
May 15, 2019 (11 days ago)

Ay naku!

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bikerider
May 15, 2019 (11 days ago)

So sad naman...

Nice work

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loque
May 15, 2019 (11 days ago)

Oh. So relatable.
Mahirap ung laro na Walang Aminan Ng Feelings. Walang mananalo.

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Crystalite
May 15, 2019 (11 days ago)

Tama ka po. Sometimes, I'd rather want to know than not know. Kahit masakit.

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