Him And Her

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Date: May 5, 2019 (3 months ago)


I think I'm falling for him.

And it's scary.

I won't deny that when I first saw him, there was an immediate attraction. I couldn't really look him in the eye for fear that I might stare. I avoided him most of the night. Didn't really talk to him that much or just talk to him when needed. I am a shy person, yes. But with him, it was different. It felt like there was an awkward silence between us.

As we continued to see each other, we somehow became more comfortable with each other especially with our banters from time to time. Some are wholesome banters, while some, are, okay… Maybe, I was flirting. But I won't admit it. Not out loud, anyway.

Eventually, there was skin to skin contact. No, it's not what you're thinking. Slight touches, hugs, kissing on the cheeks, and the like. But everytime he does that, there's this current that runs through my skin, it's electrifying. I don't know if he feels it, but I do.

As time passes by, I question myself. Should I ask or should I let it be? I try to act normal whenever he's around or whenever I'm with him. I know that we can't be. We're both in a relationship and yet, the attraction, the chemistry, it's undeniably there. That no matter how I try to avoid it, it's there, constantly creeping, seeping. And I can feel that he feels the same way, too. Or maybe I am just reading too much on "our" awkward silences whenever we're together. Maybe, it's just me. Maybe, I am hoping. Maybe….

Then one day, it happened. Oh, God! I wish I could have taken them back. But words cannot be taken back… I told him "I love you." I swear, as soon as I said that, I wanted to die! But what hurt the most, was when he didn't say anything back. So I told him to forget what I said and that we should pretend it never happened.

So what now?



I'm in a relationship.

The first time I saw her, I couldn't take my eyes off her. She is pretty. But her smile, it was her smile that captured my attention. It melted my heart instantly. She rarely talked to me that night. That, or she's trying to avoid me. So I was content to stare at her from afar or steal glances at her whenever she's near. She'd blush and smile shyly when she catches me looking at her.

We continued to see one another in gatherings and have become somewhat comfortable with each other. We exchanged jokes, wholesome and otherwise. It seems like we're flirting with one another. Or is it just me?

From verbally comfortable, we progressed to contact comfortable. Whenever we're together, I would put my arm around her waist and she would automatically lean on my shoulder. When I kiss her cheeks goodbye, I wanted to kiss her lips instead. Her scent is so intoxicating that I have a hard time controlling myself. I only hope she does not hear the rapid beating of my heart when she's close to me.

Time has not been helpful. Everytime I see her, all I want to do is to gather her in my arms in a tight embrace and just stay like that until she tells me to let go. But I know we can't be. We both have partners, and yet, this attraction is undeniably strong that I know she feels it, too. The chemistry between us is something that I haven't felt in a long time.

"I love you".... I was caught off guard when she suddenly blurted those words that I was speechles...

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May 8, 2019 (3 months ago)

damn.. so what now..

Death is certain. Time is not.

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May 9, 2019 (3 months ago)


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May 15, 2019 (3 months ago)

Yung moment na marealize mo na nainlove ka na,  nakakatakot talaga lalo at hindi mo alam sa kung wala, may konting pag asa, o hindi tiyak ang tugon. At kailangan mo ng gabundok na lakas ng loob para maamin mo yon sa tao. Kasi ang hirap itago ng feelings lalo pa at regular na nagkakasama. Kaya lang sana, kung d kaya tugunan ang pagmamahal na inaalay, sabihin din agad dahil nakakabuang ang pag-iisip at nakakapang hipuspos ang pag-aantay sa wala.

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