It's been already a week now since I moved here in my new place. I smiled, "my new place" up until now I cannot still believed that I am actually living here. The living room area is huge, it has those one big window glass. I am in the 14th floor and the view is just amazing. I never expected na may ganitong view pala sa lugar na to.

Although, I knew that all of this are temporary, but still. It has only one room but boy oh boy kasya yata isang buong team ng basketball player sa loob sa sobrang laki. When Arvin is not around, I sometimes sing so loud! Wala lang, feel ko lang.

*phone beeps*

"I'll be late" text ni Arvin.

I pout. Oh no, not again. It's 7 in the evening and the last thing that I ate was just s burrito. I sigh. I guess tawag na lang ako for food deliveries.

After kong tumawag ay napagpasyahan kong maligo muna. Matatagalan daw yung food dahil sa ulan and traffic. Great! Just my luck. Bumalik ulit ako sa kitchen para i-ch...

After agreeing on the proposal ay dineposit agad ni Arvin ang pera sa bangko ko. I immediately paid my landlady and other bills, thank God nakabayad din ako. Right now, I am moving out. Yes, you heard that right, Arvin suggested that I should move malapit sa place niya. Hindi na lang ako nakpagtalo, total mas maganda din naman doon sa lilipatan ko hindi pa hassle sa transportation. My phone beeps.

"Everything is settled na doon sa bagong lilipatan mo" text ni Arvin.

"Okay, thank you. If you like dito ka na mag dinner later, total last day ko na dito" reply ko sa kaniya.

After niyang umagree ay nilagay ko na sa box ang last set ng mga damit ko. Yun lang naman yung dadalhin ko, the rest of my things ay iiwan ko sa landlady ko. I gazed at my apartment one last time at napangiti ako. After deciding to be independent ay ito yung unang naging tahanan ko. It wasn't east at first, dito ako umiyak ng umiyak when everything was falling apart, di...

Arvin's assistant emailed me last night to inform me that he wants me to be in his office at 3 in the afternoon so I am on my way now. It's been 5 days since the last time I saw him, iniwan niya sa akin yung file about sa information ng buhay niya. I've read it, twice actually, I am still confuse and l got some questions. The whole pretend-girlfriend-thing is insane but I can't just dismiss the fact that I need the money. I know there are still a lot of ways to provide my needs but I am running out time, my landlady keeps calling me since yesterday. I sigh, I honestly don't know what to do.

I look at the file one more time, his full name is Theo Arvin Wilson - 32 years old, he studied and graduated abroad. He has 3 siblings and he is the youngest, his parents are still around. He is the current CEO of the Wilson Corporation, he move in the Philippines 6 months ago and just year and a half ago he got divorce. Binalik ko sa folder yung file and press the buzzer, sa ka...

*phone ringing*

"Hello?" sabi ko

"Jane?" that husky voice again. Bigla akong kinabahan, huminga muna ako ng malalim bago sumagot.

"Yes, who's this?" I said as I close my eyes and hold into the bedsheet so tight, I tried so hard to be calm.

Narinig kong tumawa ito.

"Arvin, from last night" sagot nito.

"Oh... yeah, I remembered..." I actually don't know what to do or even say. Should I be casual? Or should I pull the amnesia drama? Act cold, like it wasn't a big deal? Oh! How can I even do that? I mean, right now, last night was as clear as the sky outside!

"Jane?" Sabi nito?

"Uh-mm, ehem* yes? Yes, what is it?" Nauutal kong tanong.

"Haha, I was asking if we can meet this afternoon?" He asked.

"Oh.. uhmm.." and once again, my heartbeat is racing. Wtf?! Sinipat ko ang orasan sa bed side ko. It's already 11:50am.

"Uhh.. ye-yeah sure" I answered

He told me the...

Sometimes I wonder how it feels to have everything. Yung tipong di mo na poproblemahin kung ano yung pwedeng mangyari. No! Sigaw ko sa akong isipan habang umiiling. I can get through this, I have to. Huminga ako ng malalim at tiningnan ang phone ko.

"Girl, meet you at the bar later at 8. It's Kyla's birthday" - text sa akin ni Rose.

I sigh. Well, maybe it's a good thing, besides my mind is so full right now. Kailangan ko munang kalimutan yung problema ko at mag celebrate sa birthday ng kaibigan ko. Oh by the way, I'm Jane, 25 years old. I'm just an ordinary girl who makes poor decisions in life and this is my story.

I sipped at my coffee one more time, tumayo at umalis na ako sa coffee shop. Tumingin ako ulit sa aking phone it's already 7:30 pm. Naisipan kong umuwi muna para maligo at magbihis, besides nagugutom na din ako. Yes, birthday party ang pupuntahan ko later but it's a bar mabubusog lang ako sa alak for sure.

Nakar...

One morning they asked
Why I always shut my door and wears a mask
I stared blankly and didn't say a word
They assume I am a loner and a nerd
The truth is, I am scared and terrified
That once I open the door and let someone in
I'll let them get a piece of me that I always hide
I'll start showing my true feelings
And when they are satisfied and happy
They'll leave and forget about me
So let me stay here and don't open the door
Please go away, there's nothing I can give you anymore...

Saturday morning. I woke up na masakit ang ulo. I'm still laying in bed, thinking about my dream. Woah... is that really a dream? It... felt so...... real. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng init sa katawan. Weird, nakabukas naman ang aircon. Bumangon ako at nagtungo ng banyo sa loob ng aking kwarto. Nakahugas na ako ng kamay, nakapaghilamos na ng mukha at nakapagtoothbrush na rin. Bumalik ako sa aking kama at naupo dito.

Hmm, you taste so sweet kitten nanginig ako nang maalala ko ang sinabi ni Mike sa aking panaginip. Mas lalo pa akong nakaramdam ng pag-iinit when I remembered him licking his finger after he put it in my pussy.

Humiga ako sa aking kama at ibinaba ang aking shorts, inabot ko ang isang maitim na bagay sa aking desk drawer na katabi ng aking higaan — massager. I open my legs wide and put the massager sa ibabaw ng panty ko then I push the on button.

Napapikit ako ng mag vibrate ito sa ibabaw ng aking panty. Pinasok ng isang kamay ko ang...

"Yes kitten? Did you saw something interesting?" Sabi nito. Pagtingin ko sa kaniya ay nakatingin na pala ito sa akin. Did he caught me looking at his?!!.... OMG!

The next thing I knew he grabbed my hand and put it in his pants, at the top of his dick! I gulped as I look at him in the eyes. I wanna ask him what is he doing but it feels like I lost my voice.

"Yeah, you feel that?" He boldly ask.

Still no response from me. Mas lalo niya pang idiniin ang aking kamay sa kaniyang pantalon. I can actually feel it twitching!

"He's angry. You made him angry" pahayag nito.

Nakanganga pa rin ako, looking so confuse on what the hell is going on! Teka nga muna, ba't ba hinahayaan ko lang to sa mga ginagawa niya, bakit hindi ako pumapalag, ba—

Parang tumigil ang oras, he just kiss me! Naghihintay ako na alisin niya ang labi niya sa labi ko but to my surprise he started moving...

Sa dating tagpuan muling nagbalik
Nakangiti, puso ko'y muling nasasabik
Alaala natin sa aking isipa'y andito pa
Mahal, ikaw naalala mo ba?

Nakaraan nati'y puno ng pagmamahalan
Nakatanaw sayo habang tayo'y nagtatawanan
Sa piling mo, puso ko ay payapa
Sa buhay ko ikaw ay hindi lang isang kabanata

Ngunit bakit wala ka na sa aking tabi?
Bakit mag-isa pa rin ako sa huli?
Bakit mag-isa na lang akong lumalaban
Oh aking mahal bakit mo ako iniwan.......

It's been 4 days since my dad left. Hindi pa rin kami nagpapansinan ni Mike, well more like hindi ko siya pinapansin at nagkataon ding busy ako sa school. It's either early ako maka-uwi at siya nasa work pa or pag-uwi ko sa bahay nagpapahinga na siya sa kwarto niya. Pag morning naman, hindi ko siya pinapansin kahit kinakausap niya ako. I'll just grab a slice of bread then aalis na ng bahay. Until...

"Good morning" bati niya sa akin. It was Friday morning.

As usual di ko siya pinansin. Tapos na akong maligo and mag prepare ng gamit ko for school. Kukuha na sana ako ng tinapay when he tapped my hand.

"Wtf..."bulong kong sabi. Lumingon ako sa kaniya, bakas ang pagka-irita sa aking mukha.

"Okay, enough with that." sabi nito

Inirapan ko lang siya at nagmamadaling umalis sa dinning room.

"Wait, ihahatid na kita. Malakas ang ulan sa labas." Mike said

Hindi pa rin ako huminto sa paglalakad hanggang makarating...