Author writings 40

One morning they asked
Why I always shut my door and wears a mask
I stared blankly and didn't say a word
They assume I am a loner and a nerd
The truth is, I am scared and terrified
That once I open the door and let someone in
I'll let them get a piece of me that I always hide
I'll start showing my true feelings
And when they are satisfied and happy
They'll leave and forget about me
So let me stay here and don't open the door
Please go away, there's nothing I can give you anymore...

Saturday morning. I woke up na masakit ang ulo. I'm still laying in bed, thinking about my dream. Woah... is that really a dream? It... felt so...... real. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng init sa katawan. Weird, nakabukas naman ang aircon. Bumangon ako at nagtungo ng banyo sa loob ng aking kwarto. Nakahugas na ako ng kamay, nakapaghilamos na ng mukha at nakapagtoothbrush na rin. Bumalik ako sa aking kama at naupo dito.

Hmm, you taste so sweet kitten nanginig ako nang maalala ko ang sinabi ni Mike sa aking panaginip. Mas lalo pa akong nakaramdam ng pag-iinit when I remembered him licking his finger after he put it in my pussy.

Humiga ako sa aking kama at ibinaba ang aking shorts, inabot ko ang isang maitim na bagay sa aking desk drawer na katabi ng aking higaan — massager. I open my legs wide and put the massager sa ibabaw ng panty ko then I push the on button.

Napapikit ako ng mag vibrate ito sa ibabaw ng aking panty. Pinasok ng isang kamay ko ang...

"Yes kitten? Did you saw something interesting?" Sabi nito. Pagtingin ko sa kaniya ay nakatingin na pala ito sa akin. Did he caught me looking at his?!!.... OMG!

The next thing I knew he grabbed my hand and put it in his pants, at the top of his dick! I gulped as I look at him in the eyes. I wanna ask him what is he doing but it feels like I lost my voice.

"Yeah, you feel that?" He boldly ask.

Still no response from me. Mas lalo niya pang idiniin ang aking kamay sa kaniyang pantalon. I can actually feel it twitching!

"He's angry. You made him angry" pahayag nito.

Nakanganga pa rin ako, looking so confuse on what the hell is going on! Teka nga muna, ba't ba hinahayaan ko lang to sa mga ginagawa niya, bakit hindi ako pumapalag, ba—

Parang tumigil ang oras, he just kiss me! Naghihintay ako na alisin niya ang labi niya sa labi ko but to my surprise he started moving...

Sa dating tagpuan muling nagbalik
Nakangiti, puso ko'y muling nasasabik
Alaala natin sa aking isipa'y andito pa
Mahal, ikaw naalala mo ba?

Nakaraan nati'y puno ng pagmamahalan
Nakatanaw sayo habang tayo'y nagtatawanan
Sa piling mo, puso ko ay payapa
Sa buhay ko ikaw ay hindi lang isang kabanata

Ngunit bakit wala ka na sa aking tabi?
Bakit mag-isa pa rin ako sa huli?
Bakit mag-isa na lang akong lumalaban
Oh aking mahal bakit mo ako iniwan.......

It's been 4 days since my dad left. Hindi pa rin kami nagpapansinan ni Mike, well more like hindi ko siya pinapansin at nagkataon ding busy ako sa school. It's either early ako maka-uwi at siya nasa work pa or pag-uwi ko sa bahay nagpapahinga na siya sa kwarto niya. Pag morning naman, hindi ko siya pinapansin kahit kinakausap niya ako. I'll just grab a slice of bread then aalis na ng bahay. Until...

"Good morning" bati niya sa akin. It was Friday morning.

As usual di ko siya pinansin. Tapos na akong maligo and mag prepare ng gamit ko for school. Kukuha na sana ako ng tinapay when he tapped my hand.

"Wtf..."bulong kong sabi. Lumingon ako sa kaniya, bakas ang pagka-irita sa aking mukha.

"Okay, enough with that." sabi nito

Inirapan ko lang siya at nagmamadaling umalis sa dinning room.

"Wait, ihahatid na kita. Malakas ang ulan sa labas." Mike said

Hindi pa rin ako huminto sa paglalakad hanggang makarating...

**RINGGGGGGGGG**

"Finally, class is over." Amber said after namin makalabas ng room.

"Weekend! Yes! So, any plans tonight Vee?" Trisha asked.

"Gonna help dad to pack his things" sabi ko while checking my phone. Speaking of the devil naka-ilang misscalls na.

"Yeah right. Aalis nga pala daddy mo for the entire month" Amber pointed out.

"So, I assume magpapa-party ka!" Excited na sabi ni Mich.

"Of course!" Sagot ko at nag hiyawan sila.

Oh! Im Veronica Smith, 19 years old, a 3rd year college student. My dad owns a company and it requires to travel alot, most of the time I always end up being alone in the house. No big deal. My mom passed away when I was still 5 years old. At sa tuwing aalis si daddy nagpapaparty ako sa bahay. Im excited!

"Hi Vee" bati ni Jonathan, my boyfriend.

"Hi J" I kissed him on the cheek.

"So wanna hang tonight?" He asked.

"I can't...

As I shut the door and walked away
My mind says to run but my heart wants to stay
Letting out a sigh as I let go the last piece of you
Although I knew it will haunt me forever and makes me blue
But I guess our chapter has come to an end
So goodbye and be well my old good friend......

She was sad and he was lonely
Two mysterious soul meets that night
While the stars are shining so bright
And that begins a very wonderful tragedy...

Once there was a living doll
Who laughs and runs around the hall
She has scars and bruises on her face
Blood spilled all over the place

At night she'll sing a sad lullaby
Tears start falling in her eyes
Singing turns into screaming and howling
Everything went dark, oh God what's happening?

Chanting "I want to live, I want you die"
While smiling from ear to ear
"I'll be happy again, you won't see me cry"
Screaming for the whole world to hear

Knife on her hand as she walked towards me
Looking into my eyes as she laughs hysterically
"Will you let me live?" She asked
I nodded as I reach out to her my hand......

Bending my knees as I beg
Chanting a prayer as bow my head
God, if you're there can you hear me?
Unchain me from the darkness, set me free

Anywhere I go I cannot escape
Day by Day I'm losing my faith
Voices in my head are screaming again
Keeps me awake every now and then

I tried to hide the pain when the sun appear
Forcing myself to let go of these fear
But my hands are trembling as the night comes
Trying to run but my feet start to numb

Day and night I am here, I am awake
I'm not sure how much of these I can take
Someone open the chamber and help me
The key is in my eyes, just look you'll see......