How am I doing?
Thank you for asking.
I'm alive and well;
beyond that, it's complicated.
I can easily see
why people just say, "fine".
In fact, I lie to myself,
say that I am OK.
When there are so many feelings
that I don't know where to start.
I cannot cope with the bad ones,
because they feel so much like that.
I'm unsure how to enjoy the good ones,
because they always end
and lead me back to that too.

So... I'm deeply grateful that we're all still standing;
profoundly thankful that the worst didn't happen,
distraught about the might-haves,
worried about the future
and weary of the fight.
If my love were enough,
everything would be well,
and we would all live forever.
But it isn't, and we won't.
Through willpower alone,
I have to find some strength,
deal with these feelings or lay them aside,
pick myself up
and carry on....

Life can be
Both hot and steamy
Just like some people
Are sexy and dreamy

To you they are
Your eye candy
A night with them
You'd think so dandy

They make your heart
Skip a beat
A smile from them
Sweeps you off your feet

You've never seem them before
You have no idea who they are
But you know alone with them
You'd be willing to go far

For now you'll let your mind run wild
As you enjoy your fantasy
Knowing deep in your heart
The two of you will never be......

In this moment
My body begs
Your attentions
gentle caresses
Kisses, embraces
To trace fine lines
In each other's faces
Touching nerves
Engaging passion

Kiss my waist
Up my chest
Tingle my spine with feathery fingers
Whispering words of affection
Lightly
Brushing my earlobes
With soft lips
Yes, my body craves you
As my mind is fascinated
Intrigued
Always desirous to learn more
Of The Who
Of you
So my lips, thighs, waist
And all of me
Longs
For moments
Of you...

Expectations
And fears
Began
From the first.

He was afraid
Of abandonment.

She was afraid
Of rejection.

So,
His anxiousness
Signaled
Distress
Which she read
As rejection.

So,
She ran
With jackals,
Which triggered
His abandonment.

She couldn't
Respect
What appeared
To be weakness.

And he
Saw her avoidance
As having
Left already.

The whirlpool
Spiralled
Into a self-
Defeating
Prophecy.

He never
Rejected her.

She could
Never really
Leave him.

But he did.
And she did.

And that
Was the case
Of missing
In action,

A helpless
And hopeless
Triggered
Unhappiness.

He gave up.
She gave up.

And he accepted
The truth
Of it all.

And she made
Her lifele...

(Hi, Hello.. How have you been? :) )


Take me out and use me, I'm there waiting in your mind, use me for your pleasure, you know of the sexual kind

Make me do as you choose, lick, bite and touch your skin, do as you will with me, use me for your sin

Guide me to your favourite places, lead me to your heaven's gate, let me lap you gently as your desires I want to sate

Make my hands run free over you, let me crave you everywhere, I will do all you wish, tonight we're free from care

Close your eyes and feel me, let me give to you my all, I'm forever willing, waiting, ready to answer your desires call

I'm your imagination, your ravenous lover in your brain, there to please you sexually, time and time again

Now close your eyes take control, just tell me what to do, them let me take control and make sweet love to you...

( I saw you in my dreams again.. it felt so real. )


Can you take the pain away, I'm so sad and all alone, laying watching TV and writing poetry on my phone

Dreaming of a special man, one to make my life complete, to share all my heart with, oh how I dream of such a treat

Is he really out there or am I reaching for that unreachable star, will I ever find him or is that a wish to far

No more nights of loneliness, forever wrapped within my lovers arms, sharing smiles and secrets, sharing all his charms

Kisses, hugs and romance, feeling him beside me, laying skin to skin, I better go to sleep now, to let the dream begin

Sleeping is the only way I can bring him close and near, to share special moments, the ones I hold and treasure dear

So just as I'm dozing off, I send this hope out into the night, hoping it finds it's way to you and fills your heart with light...

(hi..hello..how are you?)


dripping with sin
I look at you shyly
wondering if you know me

gazing at your hardness
I blush within myself
to feel so much passion
has me wishing...

god, I want you

I come forward then retreat
I'm not sure of myself when in your stare
you look at me with lust
smiling eyes say yes sweetheart it's you

stirring desire until a fire burns
my need engulfs my loins
greed speaks before I do
kissing my faith
you taste the truth of me

I am your woman
I can deny you nothing
deep within my honesty
you find me...

I will be healthier this year
I will take more care of my body
I will drink more water
I will pay more attention to my negative mental habits
I will work to change those
I will stop judging myself so harshly
I will be happy
I will work to understand what pushes my artist creativity further into the abyss
I will take more time off
I will take more time for myself, to enjoy myself, to enjoy the person I am today
I will not just think about tomorrow or the next day or the next 5 years
I will do things that push my limits
I will challenge myself
I will not let my yearning for more do my soul injustice

-BT...

"By Ron"

Kissing and caressing, through our mobile screens, the closest we get to making love apart from in our dreams

I'll send you something then wait for you to ping me in return, each sentence designed to turn us on, to make our passions burn

Kissing you and touching your skin, I nip and kiss your thighs, you reply with a "Oh don't stop" I swear I hear your sighs

I feel it when you claw me, I can feel you rake my skin, each sent word filled with desire, matched only by their sin

Your alone in your big bed, I'm alone as well in mine, trying to share some intimacy, in words that are devine

Never sharing in the real world, though I share you in my dreams, my visions feel like you are here, as crazy as it seems

Our words build a picture up, they inspire dreams and rhyme, of how we are together, if only for the briefest time

So I love to see your name appear late at night when I'm all alone,...

I want
to feel
your fingertips
dragging down
slowly down
my flesh
marking me
red
until I begged
and begged
for more
to feel you
in the deepest
parts of myself
to feel you
scream into
my bare soul
to feel you
give me everything
everything
inside of you
until I feel
your entire being
inside me
inside my mind
inside my body
inside my soul

take me
make me yours
take me
again
and
all over again...