Author writings 2

I find myself making messages,
They won't be sent and are hostages.
I know that this will cause damages,
It will incur more breakages.

I am a fool thinking we'll be together,
Close and within the arms of one another.
Storms may pass and may change weather,
but my feelings for you will never wither.

I can see you from a distance,
But there are a lot of hindrance.
The space between us is due to my ignorance,
That I want to erase my own existence.

When will it happen that you'll be mine again.
like a treasure gift of my grandmother's porcelain.
I will wait will full restrain,
My love will always remain....

I feel the sharpess of the pain,
I think in the darkness there is no gain.
I shudder and felt paralized,
I am lonely I suddenly realized.

I can't be with you in this lifetime,
I might wait for my reincarnation for a longtime.
I might be an insignificant insect the next,
But I have never felt love this complex.

I know it can't be us right now,
But to you my love I will vow.
I am not clean nor perfect,
But for you I will try to have this effect.

I am now scared to live this life,
I am living in such strife.
I am not afraid of what the future hold,
I am not sure how my life will unfold....