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Things I cannot change, Things I guess I have no control

Submitted by on October 1, 2013 (3 years ago)
Posted in Confession: True Story, Tagalog | Categories: Mature, Romance | Tags:

I stumbled upon a video of my GF (who I seriously considering to be my wife,) with her Ex. It was a video of her and his ex during their daughter’s birthday. At that particular moment, I felt so jealous. The feeling was like I caught her on the act of cheating – but of course she’s not, the video was taken way before we were an item.

I know na dapat hindi ako magduda sa GF ko. Mahal ko siya. At alam kong Mahal niya din ako. We’re on our 10th month now. We lived together for the past 7 months; but because of the video, I started to feel and dread something I know that possible mangyari –yung magkabalikan sila ng tatay ng anak niya, for which she was with for almost 11 yrs.

Nakakatakot na variables VS our 10 months with no kid/marriage at all;

Ayokong maging unfair sa kanya by way of questioning her feelings for me. Ayokong I tarnish yung pagmamahal ko sa kanya by asking/entertaining this doubt. But I can’t help it.

In the said video, kitang kita ko kung gaano siya ka sweet as a partner. I’ve seen that before, with us, the only difference is, sa amin ako ang madalad mag initiate ng sweetness, dun sa video – siya. Yung ex hubby niya ang medyo tipong gwapo/suplado effect; in short, siya yung head over heels sa lalake, ako naman sa kanya. I never thought that she can be/was like that. All along I believe siya yung tipo ng babaeng hinabol, inispoil, etc… na siya pala ganun din katulad ko, hindi nga lang para sa akin. Sa...

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