Posted in Story: Fiction, Taglish | Categories: Erotic Couplings, Mature, Romance | Tags: erotic sex, Pain, past, ex boyfriend, Reminisce, beshy, mashaket, finale
I’m in my living room waiting for my beshy. Birthday kasi ng isa pa naming beshy and magce-celebrate kami tonight. Habang naghihintay ay nagbabasa ako ng libro at nakikinig ng music, for sure yung 5 minutes ni beshy magiging isang oras yun.
Then this particular song pop out from my playlist and suddenly I remember him. Yes siya na naman, sus if I know you know the feeling the teh wag kang ano jan. We will always have that one person na kahit gaano na katagal ang lumipas maaalala at maaalala natin. And for me, siya yun.
Okay, let me clarify this hindi porket naalala ko siya ay hindi pa ako nakaka move on. Of course naka move na ako noh. Pero may mga sandali talaga na parang tinetesting ka ng panahon. Tulad ngayon…..
It’s Saturday. Start ng weekend, same old routine 9:00am na kami nagising ni Jay. Siya nagluto ng breakfast namin kasi tinatamad pa akong bumangon kanina eh. After namin kumain ay naghugas ng plato si Jay, kasi again - tinatamad ako. Kung pwede lang gusto kong humiga buong araw, ewan baka malapit na akong reglahin.
Jay is trying to cheer me up, di naman ako malungkot hindi lang ako masyadong nagsasalita. He did guess kanina if I am having my menstruation ba daw and I said no. Inaya niya akong manuod ng movie, I said no. Inaya niya akong maglaro ng video games, I said no. Ang ending bumalik ako sa kwarto, kumuha ng libro at humiga sa kama. Naiwan si Jay sa sala baka manunuod ng movie.
Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: love, letting go, moving on, acceptance, Happy, Reminisce
This evening while I was driving back to work, this song played in my selections and it brought me back to where I was 9 months ago. The time, where I had to let go of a man I thought I would end up with ..
And the song I mentioned in the first part is entitled BREAKEVEN and is from the band, The Script ... I swear the first 6 months after that break up, I played the song LITERALLY every day.. over and over until it sank to me to forgive, forget, move on and get a life ..
But that journey?? It was one of the most painful realization I went through .. And if not for the time and compassion of my friends, support of my family - - I could say, I would still probably be caught in that moment ...
Know that everyone goes through a stage where their loved one hurts them.. A stage where your dreams, your hopes go down the drain as if they were nothing..
And if you are in this stage as I write this, know that it is a - - "stage" ..
You have to go through the pain, the denial part, the ifs, the buts, the why and how.
Take it ... Cry if you have to ... Shout if you have to .. Be bitter if you have to ...
Hate the world if you have to.
But do not stay in that stage for long ... You have to rise to the occasion .