Posted in Blog: Taglish | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: moving on, lostsoul, realities
Just like any normal girl, I grew up reading fairytales. Blame it on Disney, I even had the chance to watch these fairytales come to life on the big screen. I've watched every single one of them. But unlike most girls, deep down inside I knew that these are all make-believe. Alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi totoo ang happily ever after. Kinukwestyon ko kung meron nga ba talagang prince charming. In short, hindi ako naniniwala na masaya ang buhay.
Yes I didn't have an easy childhood. Coming from a broken family with me being an only child, maaga akong namulat sa katotohanan na hindi laging may happy ending. Na hindi lagi ang prinsesa at ang prinsipe ang nagkakatuluyan sa huli. What a fucked up childhood right? But the bitterness of life didn't stop me to dream. Hindi ko man aminin, deep down I am still hoping and praying that God will give me my own fairytale.
Then somebody came. Akala ko sya na yung prince charming ko. And just like the fairytales I came to know, I was swept off my feet. I gave him everything. To the point that nothing was left of me. It took me a while to realize that my happily ever after is not happening with him. In the end, self preservation saved me from this relationship. But even after this, I didn't stop to believe that my fairytale will soon come true.
After a couple of years, I met another guy. Maybe it's that part of me that always longs for a loving relationship that makes me vulnerable. Kahit na alam ko that this gu...