Posted in Blog: Tagalog | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: BBW, rant
Pangit, Mataba At Mapera.
Pa-Rant muna. Isa lang. Wala kasi ako makausap :(
Yan ako. Kaya halos lahat ng boyfriend ko nagagamit lang ako. Magiging sweet lang sakin kapag sweldo day na o kaya kapag magbabayad na ng bills o kaya kapag taglibog siya. Lahat ng date ako taya. Hindi naman ako bakla (no offense meant). Swerte pa nga yung ibang gay kasi minamahal sila. Pero bakit ako ganito? Oo hinayaan ko lang, ano magagawa ko? Mahal ko eh. Ganun naman diba may nagagawa kang alam mong mali dahil mahal mo. Gusto ko lang naman may magmahal sakin in return. Yung totoong mamahalin ako at hindi yung kailangan ako kaya mahal ako. Gusto ko yung mahal ako kaya kailangan ako. Sobrang hirap ba nun?
Gustong gusto ko lang naman ng may magmamahal sakin. :(
Siguro i sound desperate, but im old. Im late twenties na. Kumbaga marrying age na pero ni wala ako matinong relasyon. I just wanted to feel special. Ang childish ba? Yun kasi lagi nya sinasabi sakin kapag nagpapalambing ako. Ang immature ko daw kasi hinahanap ko yung kung gaano sya kalambing dati. Siguro nga dahil pangit ako at mataba. Hindi na din naman kasi ako papayat eh kasi may hormonal imbalance ako. Natural naman na yung pangong ilong at hindi ako flawless. Kaya siguro hindi talaga ako binibiyayaan ng magmamahal sakin. Sino bang may gusto ng pangit diba? Kumbaga hindi talaga ako yung babaeng jojowain mo. Gagamiyin at iiwanan lang sa ere.
And Maybe love wasnt for me. :((((((...
Posted in Confession: True Story, Tagalog | Categories: Romance | Tags: rant, Rubbish, Lol, Nothing, Blablabla, Blabbery
Well, I just turned 20 today. Yay for me for avoiding death's scythe for this long. I don't really worry about it that much, but in that 20 long years, I never fell in love with any girl. There were times that I almost did, yet in the end it was not that real. So no girlfriend, ever. And no I'm definitely not gay. Some tried convincing me or made me think that I could be, but I'm just not into guys. Oh and guess what? Yup... virgin. Again... I never gave a fuck about these things. Until I started working. Being surrounded by people who are in love, with a family, broken hearted. It justsuddenly made me think... Where the fuck are you my fated one. Am I foolish for waiting for that girl who has the other end of my red string of fate? Well one of my best buds did say that I am too romantic, and too nice and gentle with women in that matter.
Who am I kidding... I always pictured the time when I will meet the right girl, and it goes a lil bit something like this. Time will stop, everytime she will smile. Our eyes meet then boom... I'm suddenly blown away. I want to meet someone who will make me want her. Disregard the looks, body, personality. I don't want to fall in love with just one or two or three aspects of a lady. I want to fall in love with everything and all she is. Her past love, past experiences... Heck! Even if she's no longer a virgin like me. I don't give a damn... God will know that once I see her smile... I will do everything, all the things I can and ca...