Writings about Pain (9)
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Am I That Easy To Forget?

Submitted by on October 12, 2016 (1 month ago)
Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: , , ,

Inspired by the song Am I That Easy To Forget by Engelbert Humperdinck

“They say you've found somebody new,”
No she’s not someone new. She was his first love, and still is his love


“But that won't stop my loving you.
I just can't let you walk away,
Forget the love I had for you.”
I can’t just let you go without a fight. Will I win, though?


“Guess I could find somebody, too,
But I don't want no one but you.
How could you leave without regret?”
And you said that you’d have no one else after me. Now it makes me laugh bitterly.


“Am I that easy to forget?”
Seems the case, I can easily be replaced.


“Before you leave be sure you find
You want her love much more than mine.”
Though you say you both can’t have a relationship, you know that you’d jump into each other’s arms if no one was in the way. 


“'Cause I'll just say we've never met,
If I'm that easy to forget.”
I’ll have to push all our memories at the back of my mind, my consciousness, until I have completely forgotten about you. Because no matter what I do, no matter how long we’ve been together and we’ve been through together, I can never compare to a decade of regret you have with h...

My Pain

Submitted by on September 28, 2016 (2 months ago)
Posted in Poem: Tagalog | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: , , ,

You are sick, but I am far
You need me, but I'm in war
I can't stay for too long
so please, be strong!

I am a warrior who fight for the land
at the same time, a man who loves someone
I love my country, so I fight
I love you, so I must sacrife

This is to protect each one of you
I leave my home just to defend you
My love died without me in her side
I hurts but i must stand to fight

For my country, for my duty
For the people entrusted in me
I cry, I sobbed alone
bear the deepest pain on my own......

Your Love: Reminisce

Submitted by on September 22, 2016 (2 months ago)
Posted in Story: Fiction, Taglish | Categories: Erotic Couplings, Mature, Romance | Tags: , , , , , , ,

Your Love: ReminisceI’m in my living room waiting for my beshy. Birthday kasi ng isa pa naming beshy and magce-celebrate kami tonight. Habang naghihintay ay nagbabasa ako ng libro at nakikinig ng music, for sure yung 5 minutes ni beshy magiging isang oras yun.

Then this particular song pop out from my playlist and suddenly I remember him. Yes siya na naman, sus if I know you know the feeling the teh wag kang ano jan. We will always have that one person na kahit gaano na katagal ang lumipas maaalala at maaalala natin. And for me, siya yun.

Okay, let me clarify this hindi porket naalala ko siya ay hindi pa ako nakaka move on. Of course naka move na ako noh. Pero may mga sandali talaga na parang tinetesting ka ng panahon. Tulad ngayon…..

It’s Saturday. Start ng weekend, same old routine 9:00am na kami nagising ni Jay. Siya nagluto ng breakfast namin kasi tinatamad pa akong bumangon kanina eh. After namin kumain ay naghugas ng plato si Jay, kasi again - tinatamad ako. Kung pwede lang gusto kong humiga buong araw, ewan baka malapit na akong reglahin.

Jay is trying to cheer me up, di naman ako malungkot hindi lang ako masyadong nagsasalita. He did guess kanina if I am having my menstruation ba daw and I said no. Inaya niya akong manuod ng movie, I said no. Inaya niya akong maglaro ng video games, I said no. Ang ending bumalik ako sa kwarto, kumuha ng libro at humiga sa kama. Naiwan si Jay sa sala baka manunuod ng movie.

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Years of Agony

Submitted by on May 22, 2016 (6 months ago)
Posted in Poem: English | Categories: Erotic | Tags: , , , , ,

That's how magical it goes...

One moment I thought it was only me...
Only me confirming if the spark is still there,
Only me hoping for another chance that we might just lost for a while,
Only me thinking I'm still in love with you,
and Only me asking for forgiveness that I left you..

But I guess, it was not only me. It Was both of Us. We finally found all the answers we're searching for for years in just a night. 

Pain strikes. Don't you feel it?
In just a second of looking into your eyes, I knew it.

My hope and faith for the two of us vanished..
Fears and regret overflowed within me. I lose you, no. I lost you.

You're happy now. Contented. And loved.
I won't dare to mess with those things you have right now.

I belong to the past. It should all belong to the past. And I thank you for showing me how I should put myself together.

Yes, we both finally moved on. And let's admit it, it took us years to realize that we have gone this far without each other.

And yes, memories can really be... DECEIVING.
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Syota ng Iba 5

Submitted by on October 2, 2015 (1 year ago)
Posted in Story: Fiction, Taglish | Categories: First Time | Tags: , , ,

     Napaupo ako sa nabasa, hindi ko alam kung sino ang uunahin ko, hay naku naman pag si Hazel ang pinuntahan ko e siguradong kantutan ang mangyayari pero panu si April? Nasa malalim akong pag-iisip nang dumating si John, biglang parang naging anghel ang tingin ko sa kanya dahil nakaisip ako ng paraan. 

     "O bakit ganyan ang tingin mo sa'kin?..ganda niya no? Hehe!..pre wag moko susumbong ha, ex ko na lang yun si April talaga ang mahal ko" Sabi nito.

     "Oo naman pre bakit naman kita ilalaglag...pero may isang kundisyon" sagot ko sa kumag. 

     "Ha? Anu yun..kinakabahan naman ako diyan pre.." 

     "Wag ka mag-alala may hihingin lang akong favor, may babaeng pupunta dito ngayon on the way na siya, abangan mo siya sa labas kulay pulang Toyota Vios ang kotse niya tapos papasukin mo dito at sabihin mong antayin ako ok lang ba? may pupuntahan lang ako saglit pero babalik agad ako." request ko na alam ko namang ok lang sa kanya. 

     "Sure pre yun lang naman pala e syota mo? Maganda ba? Anu nga palang name?" Sunod-sunod niyang tanong.

     "Wow ha! Syota agad? Hindi pa pero malapit na..kaibigan ko lang siya Hazel ang pangalan" sagot ko naman sabay tayo na para lumabas "ikaw na bahala pre ha sige na alis nako balik ako agad" paalam ko sa kanya. 

     Paglabas ng bahay ay agad kong tinawagan si April para alamin kung nasan siya at sinabi kong on the way nako, malapit lang...

Don't Read This

Submitted by on February 22, 2015 (1 year ago)
Posted in Blog: Taglish | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags:

.  Sabi nga ng third law of motion ni Newton, "for every sction there is an equal and opposite reaction" . Sa buhay naten ganyan din, hindi mag rereact ang isang tao lalo na magbabago kung wala kang ginagawa sa kanya. Yung tipong isang payapang tubig ja bigla mong binulabog, ganoon un.... At ganyan ang patuloy na nangyayare saken, as of now I have no idea why I'm writing this blog, my hart is full of hatred and pain from a person na hindi naman deserving pagkatiwalaan ng lahat lahat. Sabi ko sa sarili ko hindi ako magsusulat dito sa fss but here I am composing a blog.

Hindi ako snob na tao moody lang lalo na kapag in pain or something, ang hirap kaseng magmahal ng todo and then parang kawawa ka lng na itatapon. Yung pinaglaruan ka lng, para kang manikang pinaluma pagkatapos itinapon at pinapaasang pupulutin uli. I must admit, I'm so dumd kase patuloy kong hinahayaan ang sarili kong mapaglaruan at gaguhin, ang hirap ng ganitong sitwasyon. I'm on the prime of my life pwedeng makuha ang anu mang gusto ko at umibig sa isang taong para talaga sakin but here I am torturing myself. Sa sobrang sakit wala nang luhang lumalabas sa mga mata ko, lunok na lang ng lunok, wala nang pakialam sa reputasyong pinaghirapang buuin mata ng lahat. Bakit kasi ako nagmahal sa maling tao, sa isang DIMONYO.

For closure, sabi nga sa first line ng first paragraph ko... HINDI AKO MAGIGING GANITO KUNG HINDI MO KO PINAASA AT PINANIWALA SA MGA KASINUNGALINGAN MO! I know I sound so bitt...

Midnight Calls

Submitted by on November 2, 2014 (2 years ago)
Posted in Poem: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: , , , ,

Do you still remember that time when you called?

That night when your heart got broke?

When she told you things which caused your fall

Saying she don't want you no more

If you could remember that night you called

You told me things which crushed my hopes

Said you love her and she's your all

Baby,don't you know that I can make you whole?

I'm the only one who can take your midnight calls

Listened to your faint cries and broken voice

Made me feel things I can never told

How I hated myself for I took your calls

But I knew I'd hate myself more if I ain't gonna take

Your midnight calls...

Naaalala ko dati

Submitted by on September 13, 2014 (2 years ago)
Posted in Blog: Tagalog | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: , , , ,

Naaalala ko datimasaya tayo.
Naaalala ko datimahal kita, mahal mko.
Naaalala ko dati 6 years na tayo.
Naaalala ko dati pag naghaharutan tayo.
Naaalala ko dati lagi tayong magkasama.
Naaalala ko dati kasal nalang kulang.
Naaalala ko dati bigla ka nalang unti unting nawawala sakin.

"Red what happened to us?" I asked him with a soft voice.
"Wala naman nangyari ha?"
"Anong wala? You're slowly slipping away"

Naaalala ko dati nung naghiwalay na tayo, iyak ako ng iyak tapus niyakap mo pa rin ako.
Naaalala ko dati kahit break na tayo tumatawag ka pa rin sakin.
Naaalala ko dati ang daming nagbago.
Naaalala ko 8 months na tayong wala.
Naaalala ko dati halos wala na tayong text or tawag.
Naaalala ko dati Birthday mo, tinawagan kita tapus nag usap tayo ng matagal. Heaven!
Naaalala ko yung time na...

"Atee! kami na ulit! matutulog nako kasi excited ako, magkikita kami ni Red bukas! para maganda ako."

Naaalala ko dati tayo nga pero wala ng spark.
Naaalala ko lagi nalang tayo nag aaway wala ng masaya.
Naaalala ko nung bigla ka nanaman nawala. bakit ba lagi ka nlang nawawala. :(
Naaalala ko, Naaalala ko yung araw na nasaktan ako ng todo. iyak ako ng iyak.
Naaalala ko yung sabi ni ate na...

"Shi, kinasal na si Red"

Naaalala ko halos gumuho mundo ko nun.
Naaalala ko dati yung sob...

Sa Muling Pagtibok

Submitted by on August 23, 2014 (2 years ago)
Posted in Story: Fiction, Taglish | Categories: Erotic Couplings, Mature, Romance | Tags: , ,

Sa tuwing sasapit ang katapusan ng Pebrero ay nakagawian ko nang umupo sa harap ng dagat. In this specific place here in Boracay, in front of a tiny island with Mother Mary's image, where I met Toni. 

FOUR YEARS AGO

I first saw her during a project presentation. I'd say that she has this exuding confidence especially at 5'6", maigsing buhok and with a nice athletic body. Gusto ko ang pagiging morena niya dahil exotic beauty ang dating sa akin. She was wearing a red blazer and skirt. Her glasses make her look like a geek pero bagay sa maliit niyang mukha.

"Hi, I'm Leo. Pwede bang tumabi sayo?" I asked ng matyempuhan kong nagsosolo na nakaupo sa harap ng dagat.

"Sure. I'm Toni." Ngiti niyang tugon.

"Yeah I saw you nga kanina." Sagot ko naman sabay abot ng kamay maging ng beer at pasimpleng sulyap sa mahahabang hita niya. 

"Okay ang proposals ng Company mo sa project namin." Panimula niya.

That's how it started. She's 35 but definitely looks a lot younger than her age. Di naman siya lugi sakin kung sakali dahil kahit papaano ay mas matangkad pa rin ako sa kanya at maayos rin naman ang pangangatawan. Stable na rin ako financially kaso emotionally ay questionable if settling down will become an issue.

May bf daw siya and I told her na ako naman ay on and off ang relationships. I added na ang oras ang laging nagiging problema ko and I need to put more effort in that department. Well, di alam k...

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