Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: love, alcohol, confused, numb, senseless
(Music in the background: Out Of Reach by Gabrielle, Chasing Pavements by Adelle, Stay by Lisa Loeb, I Can’t Make You Love cover by Adelle, Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow, etc., etc.)
I think I have cried my eyes dry. Or so I thought. Lately, I have been feeling numb. I don’t know if it was the intensity of the emotions I feel or maybe I just don’t want to feel anymore so that when I have decided to say my goodbye, I won’t be affected as much. Yes, I am now torn into staying or letting go. And I think I have become attached to alcohol more than I would like to admit. I guess this is good so it will build up my tolerance for alcohol. And yes, it will also block any pain that comes my way.
It’s really heartbreaking to realize that I never truly had his heart as he claimed. Wherein I have come into terms with my past relationships and decided to move on, he hasn’t. And here I thought I was the one who helped him get through his darkest days, as he once told me. Unfortunately, I have come to realize that wasn’t so.
Yes, I love him but do you ever get that feeling that you also want to let go to make him happy? It's a risk I am not sure I am willing to make. Maybe not just yet. But I know you'd all say I should let go and move on.
I really want to talk to the girl. But I don't know if that would be a good idea. I hate her. There, I've said it. I hate her for making him feel this way, for not shutting up when she could h...
Posted in Confession: Tagalog | Categories: Anal, BDSM, Erotic Couplings, Exhibitionist and Voyeur, Fetish, First Time, Gay Male, Group Sex, Taboo, Interracial Sex, Lesbian Sex, Wife Lovers, Mature, Reluctance, Romance, Toys and Masturbation, Transsexuals, One Night Stand | Tags: sex, bisexual, Gay, confused, homosexual
Hi guys and gals. First post ko to sa fss and i am enjoying it here. Astig ng mga stories and i can’t wait for all the updates.
PLEASE FINISH READING MY POST (medyo mahaba eh)
Marahil nagtataka kayo bakit curious_bottom ang username ko.It's because i am gay (or so i thought). Ngayon kasi i am more curious about the other side of the road. Kasi nalilibugan na rin ako sa mga BABAE.
Just a quick background...
If you must know, sa lgbt, bottom is the one who gets fucked. Sometimes, i am a power bottom, minsan submissive, dependent on how i want to pleasure my man.
Since bata palang, alam ko na talaga ang gusto ko and alam ko na bakla ako. Hindi ko ito ikinakahiya. I am 26yo, may sariling trabaho, independently living, hindi ako nagdadamit babae, medyo may muscle ako, halos palagi rin akong may bigote kasi hindi ako mahilig magshave ng facial hair(sinasabay ko nalang sa haircut) at semikal ako. In short, wala akong bahid. Kaya rin siguro mas madali akong natatanggap ng mga taong nakikilala ko. Puro straight din mga kaibigan ko pero alam naman nila. Don't get me wrong,hindi ko tinatago sexuality ko at hindi ako nagpapakalalaki kagaya ng mga paminta. Ganito lang talaga ako. In short, ang pinagkaiba ko lang sa mga tunay na lalaki ay lalaki rin gusto ko.
Siguro dahil maaga kung nalaman ang tunay kung pagkatao ay hindi ko na nadaanan ang identity crisis. Dahil mas maaga kung nakilala ang sarili ko, mas nagkaroon din ako ng enough amo...
Posted in Poem: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: poem, confused, right path
The love was rising
prematurely but paristent.
She was confused
unware of it, uncertain.
Night turn to day
The sun rose
Covering the moonlight
Everythings seems okay
But to the last, it was not
She was confused
If the feeling really existe
it was up to her
... to choose
Go for the straight path
or pursue crooked one
everything lies in hand....
Posted in Confession: True Story, Tagalog | Categories: Taboo | Tags: confused
I dont know why if mali ito, im a married guy with a wife with almost everything but di nya alam hanggang ngaun tungkol sa aking sex fantasy, i want seeing her with other man in bed like 2 or 3 guys pero di ko parin masabi kasi i respect her so much.
One time i hired male and female para lang mag sex sa harap ko in private hotel im so happy doing it wla naman akong participation kundi manuod lang, even i wish 3 lalake at isang babae in bed i dont know if im abnormal but its my greatest fantasy.
Any comments? thank you po.....
Posted in Poem: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: love, melancholy, confused
Is it hard for me to fall in love with a person like you?
People say I’m a nobody for someone like you do.
But can you stop the clock from ticking?
No matter what it takes?
Though it’s hard for me to say I LOVE YOU
But I can’t stop it, too.
I have seen you before
When it didn’t matter still
I never thought that things could change
And makes me feel this way
But love is such like cupid’s arrow
You never could expect
I woke up one day perplexed and puzzled
That I fell for you…
I do feel scared for this lonely heart
That it might just end up hurt
For trying to touch and reach for the stars
So high up in the sky.
IS IT WRONG TO FALL IN LOVE?
CAN WE TEACH THE HEART TO CHOOSE?
Should I decide to be unfair to myself?
And lurk in just one corner of the room?
And end up wishing we met
In a different time and different circumstances?
But things could never be changed…
So, here I am finding all the strength,
The courage to say the words
And that you mean so dear to me
Let this poem never go unheard
And that my love for you is true
In my rainbow you’re my hue
And there is nothing wrong to be in love
If you choose to search out deeper to our souls
And go beyond the prison cell that we’ve made ourselves
And be free to...