Writings about alcohol (4)
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Senseless

Submitted by on October 16, 2016 (1 month ago)
Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: , , , ,

(Music in the background: Out Of Reach by Gabrielle, Chasing Pavements by Adelle, Stay by Lisa Loeb, I Can’t Make You Love cover by Adelle, Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow, etc., etc.)

I think I have cried my eyes dry. Or so I thought. Lately, I have been feeling numb. I don’t know if it was the intensity of the emotions I feel or maybe I just don’t want to feel anymore so that when I have decided to say my goodbye, I won’t be affected as much. Yes, I am now torn into staying or letting go. And I think I have become attached to alcohol more than I would like to admit. I guess this is good so it will build up my tolerance for alcohol. And yes, it will also block any pain that comes my way.

It’s really heartbreaking to realize that I never truly had his heart as he claimed. Wherein I have come into terms with my past relationships and decided to move on, he hasn’t. And here I thought I was the one who helped him get through his darkest days, as he once told me. Unfortunately, I have come to realize that wasn’t so.

Yes, I love him but do you ever get that feeling that you also want to let go to make him happy? It's a risk I am not sure I am willing to make. Maybe not just yet. But I know you'd all say I should let go and move on.

I really want to talk to the girl. But I don't know if that would be a good idea. I hate her. There, I've said it. I hate her for making him feel this way, for not shutting up when she could h...

JULIA

Submitted by on February 8, 2015 (1 year ago)
Posted in Story: True Story, Tagalog | Categories: Wife Lovers, Mature | Tags: , , ,


Hindi ko pa nailalapag sa mesa ang mga napamili ko mula sa palengke ng marinig ko ang paghalinghing ng mister ko.

"Ohh Julia..Ohh..ang sikip mo.."

Naihagis ko ang hawak kong bayong at napasugod sa aming palikuran.Ubod lakas kong sinipa ang nakasaradong pintuan ng banyo sa pagaakalang mahuhuli ko ang aking asawa na may katalik na kirida.

"Tangina ka Alfredo! Taksil ka!"

Pahiyaw kong sumbat sa gulat kong asawa.Nangangatal ang boses ko at galit na galit.

Ngunit sa halip na ang mister ko lang ang nagulat sa pagbulaga ay mas nagulat ako sa aking nasaksihan.

Walang kasamang sino ang aking mister.Walang ibang babae sa banyo.Walang babae.Walang kabit.Tanging ang asawa ko lamang ang naroon.

Nakaupo siya sa kubeta,hubo habang hawak ng isang kamay ang naninigas na ari.Ang isa pa niyang kamay ay hawak naman ang isang brochure.

Kilala ko ang brochure na iyon.Akin ang babasahing hawak niya na ginagamit ko sa pagpapa-order ng pang-teen ager na cologne sa mga customer ko.Bukod kasi sa pagaasikaso sa aming carenderia ay ginagawa kong side business ang benta ng cologne.

"Mahal..wala ito..hindi ako..mali ang iniisip mo.."

Inayos ng mister ko ang sarili at lumapit sa akin para magpaliwanag.Puta,nagpaparaos siya sa teenager na endorser ng cologne na ibinibenta ko?!Hayup ah! Nasabi ko na lamang sa isip ko habang halos mamatay sa kahihiyan ang akin...

Vacation: A Night With Bailey's (No. 5)

Submitted by on August 9, 2014 (2 years ago)
Posted in Confession: Taglish | Categories: Romance, One Night Stand | Tags: ,

One of the reasons of my vacation was to celebrate my daughter's 17th birthday. That night we decided to go to the bar with other relatives. There I met Megan from another table. Dating kaopisina ng utol ko at nataon naman na nandun din ng gabing yon kaya ipinakilala niya sa akin. She's in her late 30s, medyo tan ang kulay, matangkad and her body frame is slightly bigger.

We hit it off since mahilig din pala sya sa music. Ang kaso lang ay hindi ako masyadong makaporma dahil kasama ko ang anak ko at mga pinsan niya. Nasa katabing table lang ang grupo nila at magkatalikuran kami kaya kahit papaano naman ay nagkakausap pa rin.

Before we left the bar I asked her if we could go out kapag free sya. She said 'why not'. Her cute smile made me shiver and right then and there ay crush ko na siya. Ang lolo nagkaka-crush pa? Damnnnnn hahahaha.

Pero sino naman ang hindi? Ang galing pumorma and with a smile that can captivate engaging guys like me. I also like her long, black and shiny hair. Babaeng-babae sa paningin ko.

For few days ay nagkukulitan kami sa text until we decided na magkita sa Resorts World in Pasay dahil may meeting daw siya malapit doon. I booked a room at Marriott Hotel which is just a stone's throw away. I sensed something na pwedeng mangyari so bakit pa ako lalayo at saka traffic is unpredictable sa area na yun. 

So I prepared for the upcoming event. I bought some food and snacks and a bottle of ...

Sweet Revenge

Submitted by on September 4, 2013 (3 years ago)
Posted in Story: True Story, Taglish | Categories: Taboo, One Night Stand | Tags: , , , ,

This happened around 8 yrs ago.  It was the time when I suspected my ex-wife (still wifey kasi di pa kami annuled) of infidelity.  We got married because she got pregnant of our 1st of 2 kids so it was not really love (although I admit I was in love at that time).  When our youngest son celebrated his 1st birthday, my wife had plenty of guests most of them I have seen for the first time.  Although I myself was not monogamous in our relationship (I've had a few one-night stands, but none of it became a relationship), I knew she was an infidel too.   A few months later, she finally admitted she is seeing her ex bf from their province who was assigned in our city.  Although she told me she would end it, I didn't believe her (guys instincts?).  It was finally that I caught them watching a movie and went out holding hands.  I confronted her when she got home and we argued that she left the house.  I felt bad, sad and hurt.  But I have the philosophy of not forcing on things, not fighting for battles not worth fighting, (kung ayaw na niya, why would I force her).  She came back to get the kids, but I decided that I would be the one to leave since it was their ancestral home and nakikitira lang ako.

I left the house and rented a place.  They eventually also left the house and had it rented, and went back to the province.  I asked some of her relatives that i know, but they told me that only the kids were there but she was not living there.  It was also then...

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