Im Elle 24 years old. Striking ang kaputian. Sexy. Athletic built ang katawan. Vital stats is 34-25-35. 5'4" ang height. I have a full mouth..katamtamang tangos ng ilong at nangungusap na mga mata. Some would say kamukha ko si Anne Hathaway.. Ung iba naman kamukha ko daw si Anna Kendrick but I don't know and I don't care.. ang alam ko lang.. lapitin ako ng mga manyak, matatanda, may asawa, mga tatay na at marami pang-iba.

I have enumerated my basic qualities just to give you some prominent reasons why I am sharing my experience and of course to give you a glimpse about my looks. Kasi sabi nang ibang mga kabaro ko.. Pang-kama lang daw ang ganda ko which is pinagkikibit-balikat ko lang. Ok lang atleast kahit papaano eh may ganda. This is my first entry here in this site, I was just an avid reader..never a write especially this kind of genre.. Ayoko ma-judge but then why not give it a try? After all, we are all wearing a mask here… hidden by different letters.

Let's start with Mon. My boyfriend.

I met Mon thru a common friend. Actually nakuha niya mula sa Ate ko ang number ko. Hindi ko alam ang saktong nangyari pero what I can just remember was that we were suddenly texting each other. He was 24 that time and I was 10 years younger than him..NBSB-noob-in-dating-opposite-sex samakatwid.. Virgin. Nang panahon yun usong-uso ang pakikipagtextmates,clans, Gms.. me? I went with the flow.

One day inaya nya ko makipagkita. First attempt no was rejected because he was asking me in the middle of the night .. Close to 12 midnight. Inuman daw. I declined and said no since hindi rin ako palainom. The second he asked me out, pumayag na ako… sa Megamall. I can still remember his looks. He was wearing blue shirt na parang hanger sa kanya. Moreno, chinito and cute. Plus hindi sya athletic. He had this Korean-type of body. Lean. Pero konti lang muscles. Peru I was a bit turned off because he was acting rather walk like a gangster and feeling close. During the duration of our 'meeting' he was putting his arms over mine and leaning on me.

"Ang bilis bilis mo ha? " sabi ko habang kumakawala ako sa akbay nya.

Wala naman sya ginawa kundi ngumiti at kumamot ng ulo.

Its started from there, niligawan niya ako, I didn't have plans in having a boyfriend kaya lang yung nanay ko pressure. Bakit daw wala akong boyfriend.

Lumipas ang ilang buwan, naging kami at dumating sa punto na kailangan kong patunayan na mahal ko sya. Narindi din ako sa mga pahaging nyang 'lahat nang naging girlfriend ko..natikman ko". I was a virgin and tigas-tanggi ako sa mga ganun bagay. Before nakukuntento na sya sa petting lang.

Ngunit nang araw na un, inaya nya akong lumabas at pumunta kami sa isang bahay nila na walang nakatira.

"Punta tayo, Batasan. Gusto ko uminom. Samahan mo ko."

Since I was naive at walang idea sa kasabihang "kapag may alak, may balak", I went with him. Lumiban pa ako sa klase para lang samahan siya.

Papadilim na nang marating namin ang lugar. Sa Northview. Bumili siya ng dalawang mucho na Redhorse, pumuwesto kami sa maluwag na sala, tinagayan niya ako at pinainom. Nagsalang din siya ng movie, it was a film titled Disturbia, starring Shia LaBeouf.

Tumagay kami nang tumagay kahit hindi ako sanay. Hindi nagtagal nakaramdam ako ng hilo at pamamanhid. . Nabibingi ako sa lakas ng tibok ng puso ko, hindi ko alam kung dahil sa alak o dahil sa posibleng mangyari. Unti-unti na rin siyang lumapit sa akin. He started caressing my shoulders, my head, my back..everything.. and I could not do anything about it. Pakiramdam ko noon, paralisado ang aking buong katawan, mistulang lantang gulay.

He started kissing me…my cheeks, my nose, my jawline, neck, shoulders, collarbone and all I could do was moan…out of protest. Gulong gulo isipan ko. Alam ko na kung ano ang mangyayari and I was there feeling trapped, betrayed and helpless.

He started to take off my pants. Unbuttoning it and slowly letting it fall down unto my feet. I even heard the 'thump' sound that my belt has made. Nagugulumihanan pa rin ang isip ko.

These were the thoughts running on my mind.. 'Hindi pa ako ready..Paano na yung sex-after-marriage Principle?, Kabilang na ako sa milyong kabataang involved sa pre-marital sex'.

It's funny because that time, dahan-dahan niya na akong inihihiga sa sofa. Hindi na rin niya tinangkang hubarin ang aking blouse, he unbuckled his belt and pulled out a red condom.

A strawberry aroma filled my nostrils the moment he opened it. He slowly covered his shaft with the condom. Parang mali pa nga yung size na nakuha niya kasi maluwang. I couldn't feel anything but fear and hesitation. Hinalikan niya ako, soft and gentle, attempting to sooth me, erase my inhibitions. Naamoy ko ang pinaghalong alak at yosi sa kaniyang mainit na hininga. Hingal na hingal siya, kitang kita ko ang gabutil na mga pawis sa kaniyang noo. Nangingintab na rin sa pawis ang kaniyang dibdib. Naging marubdob ang kaniyang halik, naging marahas at lalong naging mainit ang kaniyang mga kamay. Umuungol na siya, sarap na sarap sa ginagawa niya sa akin. Hindi nagtagal, dumagan siya sa akin.

Ramdam ko ang pagdunggol-dunggol nya sa aking kaselanan. Pilit hinahanap ng matigas nyang ari ang aking lagusan.

"Umhp..umph..umph". Sambit nya na may halong diin.

"Wag kang malikot".

Pilit nyang hinahawakan ang balakang ko at pinipirmi sa isang pwesto.

"Masakit. Ayoko." nangangatal at nanghihina kong sabi.

Ngunit nagmistula siyang isang bingi. Nang natagpuan nya ang pakay nyang butas at naipasok ang ulo nang kanyang ari, isang malakas na ulos ang kanyang ginawa.

"Ahhhhh! " he moaned. Hinayaan nyang magadjust ang ari ko sa ari niya. Pakiramdam ko noon, mistulang may dysmenorrhea ako. Masakit sa puson..humihilab.

Sabi ko sa sarili ko. 'Bat ang daming nalululong sa pre-marital sex? Hindi masarap to! Masakit!'

Nagsimula siyang umindayog nang maramdaman niyang nakapag-adjust na ako. Nothing was surreal, I was waiting for the pleasure to take over as they say that the pain is only at the beginning, but no. I was lying there receiving all the agonizing thrusts he was providing.

Ilang sandali ang lumipas nagpatuloy siya sa pag-ulos hangga't sa nanginig ang kaniyang buong katawan. Nilabasan na pala siya.

He has this smirk on his face that I craved to wipe off by a slap. He got it. Nabiyak niya ako .

"Pinutok mo sa loob?" tanong ko.

"OO", maikli nyang sagot at he still has that smirk.

"What if napunit ung condom or nagleak?"

"OK lang yun!". nakangiti pa rin.

Siya na din nagsuot ng damit ko sa akin dahil nanghihina pa rin ako.

'Wala na virginity ko! I can't believe it' sigaw ng isip ko.

I tried to console myself though, sabi ko, 'OK lang yan , atleast sa boyfriend mo binigay, di ka na matatakot kung ma-rape ka man wala nang makukuha.wala ka nang paghihinayangan.'

There was silence and he broke it by saying "kapag di na kita kinontak ibig sabihin ayoko na, break na tayo."

Hindi ako nakakibo. I was hurt, outraged and I wanted to punch him. HARD. But I didn't cry nor show him any weaknesses, instead I just nodded and utter nothing yet I mentally slapped myself for letting him manipulate me and dragging myself to this mess. "Tangina! Argh! Men! "

"Bakit walang dugo?" Dagdag na tanong niya pa.

Napakunot noo ako. 'How the hell I would know?' pero di ko isinatinig yun. '

"Hindi ko alam." maikli kong sabi.

It was almost midnight when we decided to part ways. He didn't even offer to drop me by my place. I took the bus alone, hurt, sore and used.

'So that's it? Mas Malala pa sa rapist ung hayup na un!.'

Then suddenly the bus played a song, you know what it was?

And I guess the tears were falling,
'Cause the little girl was lost,
But now love,
I'm not crying any more.

This girl has turned into a woman.
And I've dreamed of this moment,
All my life.
This girl has turned into a woman.
And I thank you,
For your tenderness,
Last night.

I've never a man,
Lying on my pillow.
I've never seen your body,
Without clothes.

I can't believe,
These feelings I've discovered.
Though I'm sure it's just,
What every lover knows.

Now I'm offering to...

About the Author :

AlterEgo

Joined: September 13, 2017 (10 months old)
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You know me.. You just refused to recognize me. I am you, and I am on everyone's subliminal perception...your intimate secrets, your inner longings. I am your Alter Ego.
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Palos
September 16, 2017 (10 months ago)

First blood.

Man of intelligence, culture and charm.

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nightcore1822
September 16, 2017 (10 months ago)

Walang first blood XD

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AlterEgo
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

LoL .

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Palos
September 22, 2017 (9 months ago)

Naawa naman ako sayo. Ginamit ka lang. Kaya di mo din masisi yung mga babae kung mawalan ng tiwala sa mga lalake dahil sa mga gagong yan. Pati tuloy mga katulad kong matitino nadadamay. Hindi man lang naappreciate yung binigay mo sa kanya.

Man of intelligence, culture and charm.

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HudasInChains
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September 22, 2017 (9 months ago)

Padamay na din sa "matitino". Opppppps  ! hahahaha

"Your Weak Will Won't Help Her Heal Her Heart." - Layne Staley (Alice in Chains)

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Viscero_22
September 16, 2017 (10 months ago)

nice story author. waiting for your next confession.

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AlterEgo
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

Thanks.  Still recollecting though.  :)

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savior224
September 16, 2017 (10 months ago)

Pretty decent story, at true story which is a breath of fresh air sa mga fiction na sulat dto.

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AlterEgo
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

Thanks Sav!  :)

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hardon
September 16, 2017 (10 months ago)

Probably from sports or exercises you used to do kaya walang blood. Nice story! You're really supposed to write with emotion so that others can identify. Will wait for the next chapter.

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AlterEgo
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

Hi,  I don't know how to answer that however I have my speculations. Thanks for the positive feedback anyway.  :)

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HudasInChains
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September 16, 2017 (10 months ago)

I'm a bit hurt with the way the girl was treated. Oh well. Everybody have their own firsts. Thanks for sharing.

More from you.

"Your Weak Will Won't Help Her Heal Her Heart." - Layne Staley (Alice in Chains)

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AlterEgo
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

Hi,  I still ask him about this event up to now.  He just stated tht he doesn't want me to be taken by other men.

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HudasInChains
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September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

At least firm sya dun.

he doesn't want me to be taken by other men.

Ako din. Ayaw. LOL

"Your Weak Will Won't Help Her Heal Her Heart." - Layne Staley (Alice in Chains)

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cheng11
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

langyang lalake naman yun naghanap pa ng dugo malamang hindi sanay bumanat ng virgin yun baka madaming dugo hanap nya yung parang may mens haha..pero matamanong ko lang mam kahit ba finger wala pa pumasok sa pussy mo bago nangyari sa inyo yun?

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AlterEgo
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

Hi,  i don't play with myself if that's what you are trying to imply.  Yet I have childhod 'experience' that probably contributed to the 'lack of blood' thing.

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cheng11
November 22, 2017 (7 months ago)

ano po yung sinasabi mong childhood experience mo?

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sweetrevenge_99
September 20, 2017 (9 months ago)

Fyi, some girls aren’t born with much hymen tissue at all at maraming reason kung bakit hindi nag bleeding. Mga tanungan mo kuya napapaghalataan lang

@Joyce.11.18.17💗

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HudasInChains
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September 20, 2017 (9 months ago)

ano ba nahalata mo ?

"Your Weak Will Won't Help Her Heal Her Heart." - Layne Staley (Alice in Chains)

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Palos
September 22, 2017 (9 months ago)

Inaaway ka ni SweetRevenge. Haha. Pasubuin na yan!!!

Man of intelligence, culture and charm.

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HudasInChains
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September 22, 2017 (9 months ago)

San banda ? Mahal nya kaya .

"Your Weak Will Won't Help Her Heal Her Heart." - Layne Staley (Alice in Chains)

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arab9
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

I like it. Pero sana maraming nangyaring masama sa boyfriend, like may knight in shining armor ka sana from your ex bf sa next part :) Im excited XD

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Junjun12345
September 17, 2017 (10 months ago)

ThAnks for sharing your story, sana naisip nong bf mo gaano kaimportante yong nakuha nya sayoy you dont deserve that kind of treatment after nya yon ginawa, sad but thats life.

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sek_yu
September 17, 2017 (9 months ago)

Selfish s ung bf mo,,, srili lng nya nagenjoy,,, firstime mo dpat kaw pnsarap nya ng todo,, no bleed ngyyri tlaga yan,,

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kan210
September 17, 2017 (9 months ago)

Nice story. Na-imagine ko na looks mo from your description. Sana may mga story ka pang i-post. Looking forward for more. Anyway, hope you have a gret day.

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v3n0m666
September 18, 2017 (9 months ago)

Nice story... Mejo nakakairita lang ung mga ginawa, reaksyon at sinabi ng bf mo... Agree ako kay sir sek_yu kc first time mo dapat pinaramdam ng bf mo yung sarap hindi ung sya lang ang nasarapan... Tapos ni hindi ka man lang inihatid sa place mo or kahit man lng ung malapit na sa place mo...

Pero it was a good read and will be waiting for your next story...

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warlords14
September 19, 2017 (9 months ago)

grabe damang-dama ko yung story at naasar ako sa mga lalaking manloloko, please wag niyo gamitin niyang gwapo niyong mukha para saktan ang mga babae

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SeniorCitizen50
September 22, 2017 (9 months ago)

Typical situation ito these days but really there are a lot of ASSHOLES who do this kind of style.Naawa ako sa author that her first becomes a trauma and would lead her to promiscuity further in life.Waiting for the next post

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trinket
September 22, 2017 (9 months ago)

That effing guy...!!!
Hugs for the author. And don't apologize for posting this. Napaiyak lang ako.

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