unholy hour

January 24, 2014 (2 years ago)
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hello,medyo matagal na kong nagbabasa site na to,akala ko dati puro sex lang ang mababasa ko dito,sadyang open minded and mature lang talaga ng mga readers and writers dito..may gusto lang akong ishare..di ko malaman kung anong mapupulot niyo dito..pero nagising ako in this unholy hour at bigla ko na lang naisipan magpost dito.
...to tell you honestly 19 lng ako,isang ordinaryong estudyante,di ko masabing pogi ako,di din naman pangit,kung irarank pede na sa 7 to 8 ganun,ewan ko,nadadaan ko siguro sa humor.
...I had an active sex life for the last three years,maniwala man kayo o hindi,(bahala ka sa buhay mo!),nandun yung magdadala ako ng babae sa bahay,kunyare manonood lang ng movie tapos mya mya romansahan na,pati mga close friends ng ate ko dati,nadiskartehan ko din,I had a pervy teenage life,madami akong kalokohan sa utak lalo sa sex,I even cheated on my girlfriend ng hindi niya nalalaman,which eventually backfired to me when I found out she also cheated on me,not with a boy but with a girl,.worse is wid her bestfriend who I trusted so much,you wanna hear whats worse than worse?she broke up with me on feb 14th last year,after i threw her a surprise i prepared for a month.saklap ng love story diba?,naisip kong kahit anong gawin naten sa mundong ibabaw,good or bad,seen or not seen by other people,goes around to us no matter what.
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after break up,were still doing the deed,akala ko magiging ok pa kami,it only made it more complicated,ng tumagal ng tumagal naramdaman kong para na lang akong option sa kanya,and I thought.."f*ck this! theres a whole lot better life out there.".(sorry for the words)
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I became active to church activities,it
really helped me a lot to get me back on my feet again,marami akong natututunan,it made me a better person than I am before,madami akong naapply sa buhay ko.
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coming home from church is the real test and dilemna to me,nahihirapan akong makipaglaban..di sa tao..kundi sa LUST..I'm really fighting it so much even now,I must hold to my beliefs for I know its really unhealthy for me mentally and spiritually,i remember my ex whenever I do pervy things,which only brings me down every time and I really feel guilty after doing it for I have sin to the man who saved my life,I've been addicted to sex,but for now I know its not the right time for me to have one again
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badtrip diba?kung ano pa yung masarap gawin yun pa yung kahinaan mo,I don't even know kung ok ba tong ginagawa kong magpigil.basta alam ko lang nagiging ok ako kahit papano.
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some may care or not,it doesnt really matter,I know someone out there reading this have the same situation in some ways like feeling the guilt..in sex and obviously in masterbation,sex is great,who wouldn't agree?its an awesome gift sent to us to have our pleasures satisfied,sex is a circus,pero lahat ng bagay na sumosobra masama,bulok na kasabihan,pero solid pa din tayo matamaan,and yes I know I'm young to say things like these,pero alam kong nsa lugar na din ako speak up,especially to my fellow youth out there,na nagbabasa sa site na to,I'm not against it,ang ipokrito ko naman kung sasabihin kong di ako nag enjoy di... Read More

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