Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: love, True love, Emotional, alcohol inspired
I love you and you know that. I have loved no one as much as I love you. At this moment, I am not in my right mind as it is clouded by alcohol: alcohol that I have been taking since yesterday. I tried to take my life but I was such a coward. I felt the pain of the blade cutting my flesh and I couldn’t go through it. It hurt. Or maybe, I wasn’t drunk enough to not feel the pain.
Hey, don’t cry. I’m not worth it. I could never compare to your one great love who has resurfaced. She still is the one your heart cries and long for. As for me, what can I do? Though in appearance I am the prettiest among the girls you’ve had but your eyes find her prettier than me. Though I have been with you for the past years, yet your heart has remained true to her.
It’s such a sad reality when I realize your heart never truly belonged to me. All those years, those times when you professed your love for me, suddenly, all felt like a lie now. At this moment, I want to remove myself from the equation and leave you and her to continue what could have been, should have been and would have been. That’ll remove all the what if’s in your mind.
As for me, I’m not sure how I’ll do that but you know, I’m willing to help you. It’s weird that even if I am hurting, I still want to help you. Maybe I’ve finally realized what true love is all about. That even if you’re hurting, you would do your best to make the one you love happy. And by removing myself from your sight, your life, then maybe, you’d both be happy. I am hurting a lot. So much.
I know that some people might think that I deserve what I’m getting. And I guess, I do. I have loved with all of me, gave my heart and soul to you, but well, it’s not enough. You have been searching for someone else. Hey, she might still love you all these time. Go for it. You deserve to be happy, unfortunately,... Read More