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We started as friends and had a very good time, we even make love and I got her virginity. Many more encounters happened and some we did it very wildly. We continue to grow our relationship deeper and I think we came to a point that we are like lovers even though I am married. Our relationship goes on; although we encountered small bumps in the road we were able to patch it up. Then one day we hit a wall and everything crumbles down.
She was mad at our co-workers and I was down because I made a mistake on one project and I think she tries to make “lambing” at me but still cursing our co-workers very hard. I talked to her and straight to the point told her that I am “naiirita” at her because of her cursing. Then suddenly she cried, went out and never talked to me anymore. She even gave back the things that I gave her. I admit that I love her as I love my wife. The song “Sana dalawa ang puso ko” hits me and got me thinking of the “what ifs” in my life.
I still love her and it’s very hard to let her go. I want to reconcile with her, I just want us to stay friends and I am willing to take away the sex part of our friendship. I made some effort to reconcile with her but she never responds. I don’t know if she has thrown away all the memories that we had. All those very happy memories for one stupid mistake that I made, all those are gone now. I am still struck with sadness. I don’t know if I am going to move on or wait for her forgiveness. Maybe she is deeply wounded by my actions and still furiously mad at me. I know time will heal her wounds and I hope that she finds peace and happiness somewhere else.
Is this karma for cheating on my wife? I don’t know, I don’t want to believe in karma. At least for now, if it’s karma that hit me, it hit me hard. Life goes on it will not stop on me; I need... Read More