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"You've all heard this before. How life has infinite possibilities. I don't believe that one bit. There weren't many paths for me to choose. Sometimes, there would only be one. From the limited possibilities I faced, the choices I made have brought me this far. That's why I value the path I chose... I want to hold true to the path that HAD to be taken."
-irvine kinneas, FF*-
pain: what is pain? Who caused it? Why did it even exist in the first place? who's to blame for it?
i realized that pain is one of the things that really matters in the cycle we call life. But what is pain really? Is it the feeling when we get wounded that it so fucking hurts that we call it pain to reiterate how much we are hurt? Or pain is somthing more substantial or something more superficial than that? At one point in life we all felt that pain right? but how do we really explain what it is? I believe that you can't make a feasible solution or a right action if the problem has incomplete information. So i would like to define this and maybe someone can tell me if they would agree or not. So again pain what does define pain? According to merriam webster dictionary
pain is :
: the physical feeling caused by disease, injury, or something that hurts the body
: mental or emotional suffering : sadness caused by some emotional or mental problem
: someone or something that causes trouble or makes you feel annoyed or angry
So there is the definition and if this is the definition to it then if its physical the solution is pain reliver and you're all set but for the 2nd and 3rd definition, its called sadness caused by some emotional or mental problem or someone or something that causes your rouble or makes you feel annoyed. If that is the case then the pain is just some byproduct of something...
If it is then why do take pain as our problem? When you see some girl that is been cheated on but tries to hide it but you already notice and you are concerned you would definitely ask hey what's thr prob ur not urself today and more often than not the reply is its nothing dont worry bout it and if you piush a little the answer would be somtething like nothing really im just a bit hurt or i was cheated on and right now im in so much pain. And based on this, i would understand that the reason this girl is down is not because of her being cheated on but its because of the pain she's feeling. And i've been in a similar situation where i would say im in pain coz of yada yada and my problem is the pain i feel and not the reason i felt pain.
So question is why does it happen? Thinking of it i dunno the answer and i dont want to hide in the reasoning that its human qualities. Coz i believe that to be human is to be able to pick your own path in life. Qualities have nothing to do with it. So the question is why is pain being the problem? Simple we humans tend to attend to the feelings first than the logic behind it. I must say i am equally guilty of thos but its the truth i suppose.
who caused the pain we felt? Is the people around us or the person we built our world around for? Is it really them that caused us the pain for simply hanging around or is it us building our world around them? I know its confusing but i think the best answer is both they hangged around us long enough for us to build our world around them and at the first sign of unprecedented and unfornutate events they just give up and leave us hanging that's why it hurts like hell.
Why did pain even existed in the first place? Hmm tough question i suppose? No one even asked why happiness existed in the first place so why ask this question. I guess i would say that we ask questions that are only comfortable for us and are easier to bear than answer.
But i think pain existed coz we let it be. We let somebody hang around us for so long that we already built our world around them means that we have loved that person and when we loved that person we gave them the rights to love us back as well. But little did we realize that when we let someone love us back it is already a given that we also gave them the rights to hurt us by all means.
So i suppose pain existed coz we created it. We let others love us to get us hurt as well.
so who's to blame? Is it them for hurting us or us giving them the rights to hurt us? Maybe no one is to blame or everyone is to blame, society functions as people relying on one another for its basic foundation and as homosapiens one if our neccessities is a society but unfortunately our society has been tainted by malice over the course of the years.
At a genetic level humans are bounded by the so called seven deadly sins. Pride, lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, and envy. Its a given that we all gave in to that at some point and we cant deny it that it had been in the very core of our existence. So since these factors are there i suppose everyone is to blame. But on the contrary, if we already know that why dont we take such an effort to suppress all of those so that we can live in harmony and not hurt each other?
Well i guess no one wants to live in "pleasantville" (old movie of toby maguire) where in everybody follows a flow of regular events that when you were born to be a soldier you'll be soldier even if you want to be a dancer. Then we would be no less than ants. We would not be called human coz we wont be able to pick our own paths.
What to do then? I dunno. I really am lost and im not even sure if im making any sense at all on this gibberish but this is how i feel right now. I feel that its nothing but a game designed by the whole universe to toy around with everyone. I guess if we dont wanna get hurt is we live without trusting anyone but ourselves. If we want something done right then do it ourselves.
But then if we all do that then the society will fade and extinction follows. But what choice do we have? Either take on all the pain or become extinct. "If i get to choose between you and the matrix i choose the matrix" (siefer to morpheus -matrix 1) or live in that virtual world of the matrix if it even exist. Well the world is a crappy game and the world expect us to play it so might as well just enjoy the game while it last? At the very least if all fails they blame something that they cant see anyway.
People tend to go to religion and whine all they want. But for me i already seen too much religion in the eyes of too many murderers so i wont go that way. But at least im sure that if i take on the challenge of this game whole heartedly eventually i'll find the bugs and glitches and i will make sure that i will abuse that bug no matter how irrelevant that is,... Read More