Overly Dramatic

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Date: March 14, 2018 (5 months ago)


Maybe it's the fever that's talking but I'm becoming overly dramatic once again. Fvck this. It's funny that I think it's inappropriate to post something non-sexual here but anyway, I'd rather post my kadramahan here than in fb/ig.

It's been almost a year.

I promised myself to never view my ex's ig ever again. But like they say, never say never. Today, I came across our ig messages. I was shocked because I thought I already deleted everything that connects me to him. I got tempted to view his account.

He's happy now.

With the girl he said he's just 'friends with'

"Do you think about me when she fvcks you? Could you be more obscene?"

puntang-ina. Haha.

But looking at the bright side, it wasn't as painful as the first time I saw his ig with sweet photos and caption. Before, I couldn't stare at the photos for more than 3 seconds. And I could feel my breath getting heavier.

right now, it still stings. It still sucks. Because how come the person who betrayed you is out there with the girl he cheated you with? How come the person who murdered your heart is out there living life to the fullest?

and how come i'm still hurting? I've made some progress and all since the last time I begged him to stay.

i know this is going to pass but writing it...

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Just trying to drain stress out of my system through writing. But I admit, it isn't as effective as it was years ago. I work on weekdays and attend classes on Saturdays so don't expect regular updates. Peace. And ftr, I am a girl. And yes, I consider myself a bi. It would be nice to meet people from this site. Please don't be too hard on me. 🤜🏼
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crelan24
March 14, 2018 (5 months ago)

that feeling... putangina...

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Reawaken
March 14, 2018 (5 months ago)

Tangina talaga sir. 😭

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cuing
March 14, 2018 (5 months ago)

ouch i can relate to that feeling sis, it really hurts getting cheated on but you need to pull yourself up together in order to move on. things change as well as life, for all you now it's just one way to prime you up for someone nice and better guy that's right for you. for the meantime just focus on your work and studies.. get well soon :)

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Reawaken
March 14, 2018 (5 months ago)

Thank you sis. I've been focusing on my work and studies since the break up.  And the reason why I enrolled in graduate school is to have more distraction. Sometimes the painful memories just comes back to you no matter how hard you try to get rid of it. But thank you sa pagdamay 💔 I really appreciate it.

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Fiction-Factory
March 14, 2018 (5 months ago)

The one that got away. The lostlove. The pain. The weakness. The cheat. The fragile heart. The twisted emotion. The broken journey. It hurts alot, but isn't it beautiful? Perhaps, the hardest part of it is the feeling that we can't admit the torturing part that we've been cheated. Your one Lostlove is just a preparation for  your one Greatlove. Release the pain, love will follow.

To be honest, i'm a liar. ♥♞♬♂⚄☜†∇

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Reawaken
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

I do hope you are right sir. As of the moment I can't consider pain beautiful but I am looking forward to the day that I finally can. You are right about the hardest part. I might have forgiven him for what he did but I couldn't accept the fact that I got cheated on by the person I CHOSE to trust. Thank you so much for the insights.

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jemem
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

Kingina relate may trauma na nga ako eh. Kaso iba tayo ng case hmmm :3

Imagination mo ang limit.

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Reawaken
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

I am curious about your case mister.

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cunTrina01
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

hugsss. been there po. I was cheated on, but pretended as if i know nothing tho it horrified me, pretended to the point that whenever he missed our date, i was even the one providing myself alibi like "baka may emergency lang, natraffic siguro, may pinagawa kuya niya" and so on... til one day di  siya nagparamdam ni-ha ni-ho. As desperate as it sounds, ilang araw kong inabangan sa entrance ng building ng workplace niya kaso wala, three weeks after that nakapublic na pic nila ng pinalit niyang girl... yeah you can imagine how it ached. well it's been years at ngayon, every time naalala ko how i run after that man despite the fact that he cheated, natatawa nalang ako. pero di mawala na matrauma sa cheating, i'm also highly sensitive and emotional and it took me a lot of time to regain myself, pero importante nakagetover. Girl! you'll get over soon :) make yourself busy and as time goes by, w/o noticing it magugulat ka nalang na you no longer give a fuck about him:)
#justmytwocents

Smile :)

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Reawaken
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

Things we do for love no? We turn a blind eye for the sake of making the other person stay.Madami din akong nagawang ewan para lang mapilit na bumalik sakin. Desperate moves. Mapapatanong ka na lang ng bakit? Bakit ganun kadali? Haha thank you gor sharing your two cents maam, thank you :)

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cunTrina01
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

True dat! Mga "why" and "how come",
Well anyways, you'll be fine girl :)

Smile :)

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Reawaken
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

Aye! Thank you. :)

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PioloAzkal
March 17, 2018 (5 months ago)

You have your own share din pala ms. Trina of this "iwanan" blues. One of the most difficult things that many men can't do is to say openly and directly to their girl that they found a new one, and say "sorry, meron na among iba and our relationship has to end here. More often ay hindi haharapin si Gf at bigla na lang hindi magpapakita, di magte-text..and boom...may bago ng babae sa FB. To lessen the agony for the ladies, let's make a clear closure muna on a relationship before venturing on a new one.

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starst1949
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

you seem to be a very sensible  and smart lady. So, I now you now that there are people,  things and events that will dwell in your memory forever. (buti pa sila may forever!).
True, the years will lessen  the joy or the pain that these memories evoke...but you cant really forget them  until  your memory dims with time.

For they are part of you who you are now and who you will be in the future.

You may be  sensitive and emotional as well, scarred but not broken. .BUT you appeared to be on the right track  towards rebuilding a better you.  ..smarter, stronger, and wiser in the ways of love and life..
more power.

go go goooooo!!

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Reawaken
March 15, 2018 (5 months ago)

You can let go of the people but not the memories. 💔 Thank you sir! I am trying my best to stay on the right path.

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Jen27
March 18, 2018 (4 months ago)

Hi same story like u too many desperate moves wag lang siyang mawala ganyan din magkasama lang kami tapos kinabukasan bigla na lang cannot be reach na nalaman ko na lang buntis pala dating gf binigay ko na lahat para lang patunayan na love ko sya wala pa din.Isipin na lang natin its their lost not ours,and right now am here trying to move on marami pang darating na karapat dapat sa pagmamahal natin.

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Reawaken
March 19, 2018 (4 months ago)

Aray. Nakakatangina po kapag ganyan no? True. We just have to be patient for the right person.

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March 19, 2018 (4 months ago)

That's like a thing too much to handle. I hope you handle it well.

I know you will. If you can craft this, you can handle it.

"Virtual is like everything else. Assume nothing. Only then can you truly see what you're dealing with." - Quellcrist Falconer , Altered Carbon

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Reawaken
March 19, 2018 (4 months ago)

TO be honest, it took a lot of effort to be able to surpass the overwhelming pain brought by being cheated on. But I thank God and the people around me who supported me all the way. I almost lost myself in emotional pain to the point that I hurt myself to numb the pain in my heart. Thank you for the support.

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Istupher
March 21, 2018 (4 months ago)

You'll get there eventually... My gf of 10years left me for unknown reason after she accepted my marriage proposal... Bigla na lang naglaho... We met again after a couple of years, and gave it another chance... Still didn't work out... We've established contact again but I made it clear na tama na... Can't afford to get hurt again... It'll be too much for me to handle... Though I've never gotten over her, i just learned how to accept na we've grown too much apart... Wish you the best of luck...

Nemo Dat Quod Non Habent

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Reawaken
March 23, 2018 (4 months ago)

I need to be 'there' soon. Just kidding. I'm just afraid that I won't be able to totally move on. This person was my first love so... sigh. Ang dami kong tanong. Yung iba, kaya kong sagutin. Yung iba hindi. I think lagi na lang akong magtatanong.

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