Chatroom, Whiskey, and Her

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Confession: English · Categories: Romance · Tags: , ,
Date: March 28, 2016 (2 years ago)


Staring at this quarter-filled glass
Of whiskey and an almost emptied bottle
While I coughed out the smoke of cigarettes
That's been choking my lungs for twenty years
And then shifting my gaze at the PC monitor
To read the hearty and sometimes sarcastic
Chitchats of those chat room regulars
Something inside filled me with longing.

She's gone.. I let her go.. Whimsically
Out of sheer stupidity .. jealousy .. or drunkenness
Or all of the three combined.. Who knows
I bet she knew all along for she knows me
More than I can ever understand myself and my actions
She's my long-sought light teaching me the ways
Of life and the value of being a better person I can be
To let go of the demons and get out of the pond.

My light.. My cherished teacher .. My best friend
My confidant.. She's gone .. Out of my life
No amount of tears, of feigned happiness, of depression
Would be enough for the miseries, hurts and heartaches
I caused her to slowly get tired and turned away
Can bring her back to me and restart anew
If only she can read this heartfelt mumbling flowing
She'd know.. She always does, that my tears would then start falling.

Can hearts get pained? Can hearts burst? Or can they be made of stone?
Can hearts be out of pace ? Can hearts be out of place?
She wanted my heart and direction on the right place and path
For she believed I have a good soul with just a messed up disposition
That I am smart but with just fucked up sense of direction
She always believed in my abilities, my skills, my potentials
For a moment I tried, I didn't want to fail her or hurt her
But the demons lurking within resisted and I gave her up.

Can guardian angels just simply leave one who is in need ?
And just leave you with demons feasting on you instead ?
She always said she'd help me explore the world outside the pond.
For a pond is a stale, cold, stagnant place that's too limiting.
The whiskey's drained and I flicked my last cigarette
Here I am again staring at the chat room reading the n...

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THE FACT THAT THERE IS A HIGHWAY TO HELL BUT ONLY A STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN, SAYS A LOT ABOUT THE ANTICIPATED TRAFFIC NUMBERS.

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MidLifeCrisis
March 28, 2016 (2 years ago)

Ouch 😭

And.I.Care.Not.

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wickd.witz
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March 28, 2016 (2 years ago)

I pissed outside my window one night ... I sawΒ Β so many butts clattered
The night air.. the urge to end my life .. with a single jump
A single jump ..a wicked song in the background .. all it takes
A shot of whiskey? A friend saying don't?
Would burn you and say or think you shouldn't?


You'd die anyway .. with all that burnt out cigarettes clattered
You saw in that half-opened window.. you never spent. outside that same window
On a house .. you never spent a dime making
Then spent all your life making a life and making a living not your own.

Where you headed at? What are the things you're looking forward to
When all you risked.. Risked?! You didn't even took the chance
To risk a single chance.. To chance on a life
A life that can be ... for a chance.

THE FACT THAT THERE IS A HIGHWAY TO HELL BUT ONLY A STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN, SAYS A LOT ABOUT THE ANTICIPATED TRAFFIC NUMBERS.

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wickd.witz
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March 28, 2016 (2 years ago)

What is hurt ? Is it something tasted?
Something to be hurt of.. to acquire it?
To be bought to even care about?
Or something to share we can live without?

THE FACT THAT THERE IS A HIGHWAY TO HELL BUT ONLY A STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN, SAYS A LOT ABOUT THE ANTICIPATED TRAFFIC NUMBERS.

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somebodyuused2know
March 28, 2016 (2 years ago)

Gusto kong mambasag ng trip. Tamang emo eh.Β Β :-))

I'M A NICE PERSON. JUST DON'T PRESS THE BITCH BUTTON.

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wickd.witz
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March 29, 2016 (2 years ago)

basagin mo... kahapon ko pa inaantay ... "cluttered" pala dapat yun ... hahahaha... maka-clattered wagas .. pero keri na rin .. maingay ang cigarette butts ..

THE FACT THAT THERE IS A HIGHWAY TO HELL BUT ONLY A STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN, SAYS A LOT ABOUT THE ANTICIPATED TRAFFIC NUMBERS.

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somebodyuused2know
March 29, 2016 (2 years ago)

Durog na nga ah. Parang paminta na, hahahaha.

I'M A NICE PERSON. JUST DON'T PRESS THE BITCH BUTTON.

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lexine00
March 29, 2016 (2 years ago)

kahit english at dumugo mata ko at ilong ng tagnok..go pa rin ako.inintindi ko ng maayos πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ kaya pala basted ako sayo meron ka na pala ibang mahalπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ sayang Sana ako nalang ang inibig mo di kita iiwan hanggang ikaw mag RIPπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­πŸ˜­πŸ’”πŸ’”

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wickd.witz
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March 29, 2016 (2 years ago)

ako nga una mo binasted dito sa FSS eh sows !

THE FACT THAT THERE IS A HIGHWAY TO HELL BUT ONLY A STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN, SAYS A LOT ABOUT THE ANTICIPATED TRAFFIC NUMBERS.

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layo_edad
March 31, 2016 (2 years ago)

Just read it, pareng wickd.witz. Nasaan ba ko ng pinost mo to, hehe :)
Parang gusto ko ring magpaka-emo pero wag na lang, hindi bagay satin. We all have this fucked up side, nagpapatalo sa demonyong isip na masaya tayo kahit wala siya/sila. Tawa lang ng.., hahaha sa room kahit fake. Ayaw ipakitang at some point in our lives, naging weakling, mahina, umaasa ng lakas mula sa iba. Walang direksyon, gago, feeling matalino kahit halatang nagkukunwari. Itinataboy ang taong kailangan, dahil kinokontra tayo sa ating mga desisyon. Kinakaibigan ang katulad natin mag-isip, dahil sa tingin natin, sila lang ang makakaintindi sa maling paniniwala at pananaw natin sa buhay.
Letse...., sabi ng hindi bagay satin mag-emo eh. Bwahahaha!
Nice work, pare :)

If life's a joke, then why aren't you laughing :))

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Pusanggala
April 1, 2016 (2 years ago)

oo nga. minsan you have to fake your smile just to say na ok ka lang but in the deep jungle of your wrecked personality, pain still lingers. pero sino ba makakapagsabi na you are held already kundi ang sarili mo. So why fake it where in you can have it genuine. Besides for every loss, there's a lot to gain... feeling emo din hahahaha

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JINN_
April 7, 2016 (2 years ago)

hm

hm

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Niick
May 1, 2016 (2 years ago)

πŸ’”

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