Can't Stop Thinking About My Boss

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Date: October 2, 2016 (1 year ago)


I needto get this off my chest kasi it's been bothering me for a year now.

I am a straight woman, between 25-32 years old. I am working in the back office segment of a big BPO in Manila. I had a boyfriend when I was starting to notice these weird feelings towards my boss.

She's our director and my boss' boss. As far as I know straight din sya and married to a guy from another BPO. Wala silang kids.

Una pa lang naming pagkikita, I was drawn to her because she's smart, and genuine (at least to me). She's also a breath of fresh air because of her unconventional way of getting things done. May mga similarities din yung philosophies at napagdaanan namin sa buhay kaya mabilis napalagay loob ko sa kanya.

Nung una wala naman kami masyadong interaction but due to changes in organization, naging magkatrabaho kami in a project. Dito ko nalaman na appreciative sya kapag she sees that you are very competent in what you do.

Sa dalas din ng interactions namin, napansin ko na touchy sya. Kapag natatapos yung meetings namin, lagi syang umaakbay at habang tumatagal, dumadalas na yumayakap sya sa akin.Whether dahil masaya sya or stressed, napapansin ko na madalas nya kong niyayakap na tumatagal nang several minutes minsan. Minsan naman kapag informal meeting, bigla na lang nyang lalaruin yung buhok ko at minsan pa, inayos nya yung strap ng bra ko nung napansin nyang medyo lumalabas sa sleeveless dress ko. Madalas din syang nagcocomment na mabango yung buhok ko, or bagay sa kin yung perfume na gamit ko (kahit di naman ako nagpalit ng perfume kahit kailan). Napansin ko din na sa akin nya lang madalas gawin ito at nagconfirm din yung iba kong officemates na iba yung sweetness nya sa akin.

Mahilig din syang magyaya na kumain sa labas o magkape na mas madalas kong tinatanggihan dahil natataon na madaming trabaho. Ilang beses nya din akong niyaya na magtravel out of town na hinindian ko dahil sa hiya.

Nung una uncomfortable lang ako dahil baka isipin ng iba naming katrabaho na sumisipsip ako sa big boss pero habang tumatagal, iba na yung nararamdaman ko. Lagi na kong pinagpapawisan kapag hinahawakan nya ko, lagi na din akong nauutal na hindi naman nangyayari dati. Hindi na din sya nawawala sa isip ko, lagi kong iniimagine kung anong ginagawa nila ng asawa nya sa bahay, kung masaya sya.

May mga gabi ding iniimagine ko na magkatabi kaming natutulog, na muntik na mangyari sa office outing namin. Umayaw na naman ako dahil sa hiya sa iba naming kasama.

Dumating na sa point na kapag nagmamasturbate ako, mabilis akong natatapos kapag sya yung iniisip ko. May isang instance pa na while having sex with my boyfriend, nasabi ko yung pangalan nya nung malapit na akong mag-cum.

Hindi ko talaga maintindihan yung sarili ko kung bakit ko nararamdaman ito para sa kanya.
Lalo na ngayon na lilipat na sya ng kump...

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mercury
October 2, 2016 (1 year ago)

"hinding hindi naman sya magrereciprocate" - how do you know this? Malapit naman sya lumipat ng company. Why won't you try to open up with her in a nice way. You'll never know..the way you tell your story...if she feels the same way towards you.

Life’s a bliss.

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ThrowAway
October 5, 2016 (1 year ago)

Good point po :) although minsan, baka kasi ako lang yung naglalagay ng malisya sa ginagawa nya. Unless we are by ourselves somewhere secluded, I'll probably never know :) sana mag offer uli sya magvacation :)

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SeniorCitizen50
October 2, 2016 (1 year ago)

Lilipas din yan,but then if you don't get over it then its a problem.Still you say your a STRAIGHT person then stick to it no matter what happens don't let go.

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BoyBastos79
October 3, 2016 (1 year ago)

...threesome kayu! hahahahaah!....

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antoinette
October 3, 2016 (1 year ago)

As I was reading this confession, "Imagine You & Me", came to my mind.

Sometimes I question my sexual orientation and identity too. It happened to me recently.  The girl from client looked like the lead actress of "Love Rain". She was so beautiful that I was staring at her, the first time I saw her (just to assess the extent of their similarities). I can sense her discomfort whenever I'm near and shes already a manager in her team.  I am close to bringing my own packed lunch so I don't see her at the cafeteria and feel awkward.  It is really confusing. I am not really attracted to her in that way but I can sense that she felt weird whenever Im near. Ohh well,  if there is a bi between us I could have sworn it is not me.  It is good to have that out of my chest too.  I hope you can figure out yours.

i wanna run to you... ohhhh

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ThrowAway
October 5, 2016 (1 year ago)

I really wouldn't mind if it turns out that I'm the one who has bisexual tendencies between the two of us lol.
You are right, it felt good to get this out even if nothing will happen in the end :)

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junkabul
October 4, 2016 (1 year ago)

Sana hindi ka maiinis sa comment ko... total hindi ka na virgin... subukan mo kaya makipagsex sa kanya... but once lang po... dapat talaga hindi na maulit... tapos pag kasal ka na sa bf mo... maging isang pampagana na lamang sa isipan mo ang nangyari sa inyo ng boss mo... total hindi mo naman seguro sasabihin sa bf/mister mo kung ano ang nangyari...

Sana may kasunod pa ang mga kwento mo...

You will never appreciate a simple composition not unless you have created a single piece of work.

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mamoth_101
October 5, 2016 (1 year ago)

keep thinking

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somebodyuused2know
October 6, 2016 (1 year ago)

Ako, I never had any doubt about my sexual preference, pero mas naaaliw akong tumingin sa mga magagandang babae kesa mga guapong lalake.  At madalas din na touchy ako sa mga friends kong babae kesa sa mga lalake. Madalas, tinutukso ako ng ng closest friends ko na AC-DC daw ako because of that but I'm sure I'm sure I'm not.

Hindi ko masasagot ng diretso kun bakit ka nagkaroon ng ganyang feelings sa kanya when her actions can be deemed as very innocent naman. Either you just assumed. Or all along, it was there, embedded. Deep within. All locked up. At kusang lumabas when given the slightest motivation. Or provocation maybe. Or what not. Whatever it maybe, isa lang ang importNte, magpakatotoo lang tayo.

I'M A NICE PERSON. JUST DON'T PRESS THE BITCH BUTTON.

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mahinhinkuno
October 9, 2016 (1 year ago)

Hi! I think walang masama if you will invite her to simple coffee lang, before she leaves. I believe she is a mature woman, and based sa story mo eh may emotional at professional connection kayo. Wouldn't it be nice na malaman nya na you have a crush on her? In that way, ma-cclear mo sa sarili mo if mutual ba or hindi yung feelings. I hope this helps. Good luck !

Try Me.

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Eli_Eli
October 9, 2016 (1 year ago)

malapit na christms party... be friends with boooze and that will give you answers 😃

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Moves_Like_Jagger
December 15, 2016 (1 year ago)

Pag nag aya sya na lumabas kayo na magiging kayong dalawa lng sumama ka and go with the flow.

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darker_than_black
July 8, 2017 (1 year ago)

just a quick comment.

well if you're going for him make sure your current bf knows about it. So it will be fair for your bf.

maybe its just infatuation on your side.

i wonder if the guy really likes you... or you're just confused of his actions.

into a little bit of everything

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