Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: love, alcohol, confused, numb, senseless
(Music in the background: Out Of Reach by Gabrielle, Chasing Pavements by Adelle, Stay by Lisa Loeb, I Can’t Make You Love cover by Adelle, Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow, etc., etc.)
I think I have cried my eyes dry. Or so I thought. Lately, I have been feeling numb. I don’t know if it was the intensity of the emotions I feel or maybe I just don’t want to feel anymore so that when I have decided to say my goodbye, I won’t be affected as much. Yes, I am now torn into staying or letting go. And I think I have become attached to alcohol more than I would like to admit. I guess this is good so it will build up my tolerance for alcohol. And yes, it will also block any pain that comes my way.
It’s really heartbreaking to realize that I never truly had his heart as he claimed. Wherein I have come into terms with my past relationships and decided to move on, he hasn’t. And here I thought I was the one who helped him get through his darkest days, as he once told me. Unfortunately, I have come to realize that wasn’t so.
Yes, I love him but do you ever get that feeling that you also want to let go to make him happy? It's a risk I am not sure I am willing to make. Maybe not just yet. But I know you'd all say I should let go and move on.
I really want to talk to the girl. But I don't know if that would be a good idea. I hate her. There, I've said it. I hate her for making him feel this way, for not shutting up when she could h...
Posted in Blog: Tagalog | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: cheating wife
Ano magagandang kwento sa cheating wifes? Suggest naman po kayo :) wala na kong mabasa tungkol sa cheating wife masyado eh :D
Gusto ko reng story yung mga cheating wife, tapos incest (Father-Daughter) gusto ko daddy tawag nila :)
Kayo? Ano gusto nyong topic ng story? :)...
Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: Pain, regret, lost love, replaceable
Inspired by the song Am I That Easy To Forget by Engelbert Humperdinck
“They say you've found somebody new,”
No she’s not someone new. She was his first love, and still is his love
“But that won't stop my loving you.
I just can't let you walk away,
Forget the love I had for you.”
I can’t just let you go without a fight. Will I win, though?
“Guess I could find somebody, too,
But I don't want no one but you.
How could you leave without regret?”
And you said that you’d have no one else after me. Now it makes me laugh bitterly.
“Am I that easy to forget?”
Seems the case, I can easily be replaced.
“Before you leave be sure you find
You want her love much more than mine.”
Though you say you both can’t have a relationship, you know that you’d jump into each other’s arms if no one was in the way.
“'Cause I'll just say we've never met,
If I'm that easy to forget.”
I’ll have to push all our memories at the back of my mind, my consciousness, until I have completely forgotten about you. Because no matter what I do, no matter how long we’ve been together and we’ve been through together, I can never compare to a decade of regret you have with h...
Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: love, True love, Emotional, alcohol inspired
I love you and you know that. I have loved no one as much as I love you. At this moment, I am not in my right mind as it is clouded by alcohol: alcohol that I have been taking since yesterday. I tried to take my life but I was such a coward. I felt the pain of the blade cutting my flesh and I couldn’t go through it. It hurt. Or maybe, I wasn’t drunk enough to not feel the pain.
Hey, don’t cry. I’m not worth it. I could never compare to your one great love who has resurfaced. She still is the one your heart cries and long for. As for me, what can I do? Though in appearance I am the prettiest among the girls you’ve had but your eyes find her prettier than me. Though I have been with you for the past years, yet your heart has remained true to her.
It’s such a sad reality when I realize your heart never truly belonged to me. All those years, those times when you professed your love for me, suddenly, all felt like a lie now. At this moment, I want to remove myself from the equation and leave you and her to continue what could have been, should have been and would have been. That’ll remove all the what if’s in your mind.
As for me, I’m not sure how I’ll do that but you know, I’m willing to help you. It’s weird that even if I am hurting, I still want to help you. Maybe I’ve finally realized what true love is all about. That even if you’re hurting, you would do your be...
Posted in Blog: Taglish | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: sex, Big Boobs, Trip, BDSM, Lyrics, Fun, joke, sorry, Lol, sabog, lutang, baliw, I, will, stop, now
So.... yeah... now what? xD I suppose I should start with the infamous "apple". First of all, I didn't even called her that in the last blog. Second, I don't deny nor confirm your hunch kasi mamaya isipin niyo I deny it kasi siya nga. Third, walang third xD.
I don't know why I said that... Ilang araw palang naman nung nakilala ko siya, and it was too soon to say something like that. A tip for the bois out there, try not to say thing's too soon, you might end up knowing that it won't go your way. AGAIN mga ate't kuya, walang hidden meaning to, at wala akong pinapatamaan. Just food for thought.
Anyways, fortunately... she is very charming (no visual contact yet? Maybe? but I just know) she's pleasant but still have a hint of cleverness to her. Refined but still clumsy... and I'm sure a whole lot more. I get the feeling na the more I get to know of her, good or bad, I'm sure I'd like her for who and what she is.
Enough about her hahaha xD So 15 days went so fast. Barely noticed. Fisnished my very first series today. Light up those fireworks and celebrate me B) (as if nigga) Every episode got more than a thousand views (which is awesome) hindi ko nalang iisipin na baka hindi big deal ang quality, I'll just consider myself a freakin Shakesphere (as if nigga)
Have you seen em yet? No? Go check em out. I think it's in a nice spot in the novice level. (Says who?)
Know where the line is and don't ever forget it. Off limits so back o...
Posted in Blog: English | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: Weird, real, Meh, Rubbish, Crap
Boredom makes you do weird things, well, this is one of mine. Almost haven't slept for a day while writing this rubbish. Reasons? Nothing, I just don't feel like sleeping.
Made this account 11 days ago, but been here even waaay back. Couldn't make an account for some legality reasons. I'm not really into reading that much. No novels and such. Just here and some other sites, all erotic.
Met a lot of nice people, well, I guess if you consider talking to them for a few minutes counts. I started visiting the chat room on my 2nd day of signing up. It's neat. I could definitely compare it to a classroom. Except it's as if everyone else knows everyone else. Except for newbies. At first I was a bit skeptic about their inside jokes and such. Terms, nicknames, and what not. It's actually fascinating. Like a classroom full of students, I noticed who were obviously the main players, usuals. Then there's those who are incredibly nice. If there are nice, so there are... hmm... not nice (perhaps?) but I don't really know anyone so I won't judge.
One thing I noticed, it's a bit frustrating to get noticed by the ones who you want to notice you. You just can't say "Notice me! Senpai!" like a flirty japanese chick with a high pitched voice. Or maybe it's just me. Lol.
Between you and me reader... I got my eye on this one woman. (Whom shall not be named) She's nice... like really nice, or perhaps I just misunderstood. Men always have a hard time differenti...
Posted in Blog: Taglish | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: office, fantasy, boss, straight
I need to get this off my chest kasi it's been bothering me for a year now.
I am a straight woman, between 25-32 years old. I am working in the back office segment of a big BPO in Manila. I had a boyfriend when I was starting to notice these weird feelings towards my boss.
She's our director and my boss' boss. As far as I know straight din sya and married to a guy from another BPO. Wala silang kids.
Una pa lang naming pagkikita, I was drawn to her because she's smart, and genuine (at least to me). She's also a breath of fresh air because of her unconventional way of getting things done. May mga similarities din yung philosophies at napagdaanan namin sa buhay kaya mabilis napalagay loob ko sa kanya.
Nung una wala naman kami masyadong interaction but due to changes in organization, naging magkatrabaho kami in a project. Dito ko nalaman na appreciative sya kapag she sees that you are very competent in what you do.
Sa dalas din ng interactions namin, napansin ko na touchy sya. Kapag natatapos yung meetings namin, lagi syang umaakbay at habang tumatagal, dumadalas na yumayakap sya sa akin. Whether dahil masaya sya or stressed, napapansin ko na madalas nya kong niyayakap na tumatagal nang several minutes minsan. Minsan naman kapag informal meeting, bigla na lang nyang lalaruin yung buhok ko at minsan pa, inayos nya yung strap ng bra ko nung napansin nyang medyo lumalabas sa sleeveless dress ko. Madalas din syang nagcocommen...
Posted in Poem: Tagalog | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: love, Pain, my pain, country
You are sick, but I am far
You need me, but I'm in war
I can't stay for too long
so please, be strong!
I am a warrior who fight for the land
at the same time, a man who loves someone
I love my country, so I fight
I love you, so I must sacrife
This is to protect each one of you
I leave my home just to defend you
My love died without me in her side
I hurts but i must stand to fight
For my country, for my duty
For the people entrusted in me
I cry, I sobbed alone
bear the deepest pain on my own......
Posted in Blog: Tagalog | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: Blog
Haist sama sa loob ko si crush my gf at loyal,gusto ko na sabhin sakanya kaso ntatakot naman ako mareject di ko naman gusto ng relasyon from him,gusto ko lang company niya.Di ko naman sya love talagang gusto ko lang yung lage sya nakakausap pasimple ako hinge ng advice skanya about it,sabe niya try ko daw sabhin. anu kaya the.best gawen nababaliw na ako...
Posted in Blog: Tagalog | Categories: Non-Erotic | Tags: Blog
Di na naman ako makatulog.
Ilang gabi na akong balisa.Sa ka isip sayo. Na di naman dapat kasi hindi naman ako sumasagi sa isipan mo ni minsan. Ang saklap lang. Bakit nga ba ako nag tyaga sa’yo gayong alam ko naman wala din akong mapapala say o.Tulad nila sasaktan mo lang ako. Tulad nila pa iyakin mo din ako. Minsan nga iniisip ko wala na bang ibang choice kundi ikaw? Meron namang iba kung tutuusin pero ang atribida kong puso, ayaw sa iba,gusto ikaw lang.Langya! Ikaw na halos di ako lingonin. Na kina kausap lang ako para tanungin kung anong oras na.Minsan tuloy gusto ko manging relo para kapit na lang lagi sa’yo eh kaso naging tao ako.Walang magawa kung hindi mahalin ka at nag ba kasali na matipuhan mo din ako.Waahhh hugot na!
Ang lakas ng kabog ng puso ko tuwing magka salubong tayo.Minsan akala ko himatayin na ako sa tuwa ng minsan binati mo ako. Feeling ko nun mas maganda pa ako kay Miss Universe. Maliit na bagay lang pero di mo alam maligaya na ako.
Kaya lang ngayon, sa ilang gabi at araw na rin akong nag muni muni,dapat nga bang mahalin ka ng ganito? Na alam ko naman kahit kalian wala talagang pag-asa na mahalin mo ako.Lagi na lang ako iiyak sa tuwing nakikita na may kausap o kasamang iba. At sa pag-iyak ko ni hindi yun maging dahilan na kilananin mo pa ako ng husto.Kasi nga hindi mo naman ako gusto talaga.
Eto nga naiiyak na naman ako.Ilang beses ko na sinabi sa sarili ko di ka dapat iyakan at sayang lang luha k...