Open Letter about my affair

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Date: Friday, 10 August 2018 (4 days ago)


I didn't expect this to happen. I didn't know that I still have this love for you all this time. All I knew was that I felt something was missing from the time I left you until the day I talked to you again. I have always cheated no matter who was my partner at the time. I would always have someone on the side it's like a hole that can't be filled. The only time it was filled was when there was you. I guess you could say that I have kept my promise to you when you first said yes to me.

"I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOREVER"

When I decided to meet you I said to myself I will have control no matter what happens, I will not make love to you. Because I have high respect for you and because of what I did before. But I also said to myself if ever we did, I will surrender my entire being to you if we do. And we did, it was a world shaking experience. It was as if my body longed for yours but it was natural at the same time. When I met you I didn't know that you have already someone in your heart. You didn't even told me, you hid it from me, but your body will never betray you and your body I know fully.

I came to you during the time when our place had no water, I left knowing that, I had a choice to stay and made sure we had water, but I chose to be with you. I chose to be with the one that makes me happy. I don't have much money, but what ever I had I made sure is enough to see you and be with you. It may not be enough but it was all I had at that time but I was willing to give it up for you. What ever time I had to spare at the at time I gave to be with you.

These past few weeks I dedicated my free time for you. I always made sure that you are the top priority in what I do. I guess I kind of expected the same. I was wrong, the girl I knew before is no long the woman in front of me. Although I said it many times I came prepared, but it doesn't mean I will not get hurt. I did and it really pains a lot. It was like I was fighting a losing battle. You say you love me but all I see are words. It wasn't the same as before. Sorry but that is what I feel. Especially now, you have decided, and I can't turn you away from that decision. But I hope you understand as well that the thing you fear the most already happened when we made love.

Do you know why I am going to work from 6 AM - 11 PM? It is because I want to be there with you. I haven't been so focused in my life and determined to fix it, had you not came to my life again. Do you know what is the first thing I do when I wake up? The first thing I do after I take a shower? Do you know what I think every time I have a class? The first thing I do when I end my class? The reason why I wait 1 PM your time. (3 AM Philippine time)? I only have one answer,

it is you.

I cringe with the idea that you are with him. I honestly don't see his sincerity. But no matter what I say you have already chosen him over me. Which hurts the most. Even before we met you have already decided to give him a chance. I hope that you can be honest with me, I came to you...

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PrinceChe97
Saturday, 11 August 2018 (3 days ago)

Yeah. I dont understand why women go for bad guys dude. Thats alright, i feel the same. Hoping mine wont give the douchebag another chance or something. Coz it hurts. You should probably listen to the song "Nice Guys" by Ryan Higa. Let it all out bro, hang in there T_T

She smiles naughtily when I turn into her Deadman :}

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somebodyuused2know
Sunday, 12 August 2018 (2 days ago)

When a guy falls in love and ends up hurting.

I'M A NICE PERSON. JUST DON'T PRESS THE BITCH BUTTON.

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anino
Monday, 13 August 2018, 06:43 PM (22 hours ago)

Dude, all of this, all of those feelings you thought was love and all of those emptiness you felt? Is nothing more than lust.

Your body is searching for that familiar sensation that you experience before. Kaya willing kang masaktan para sa satisfaction na yun.

Suggestion ko; masturbate whenever you thought or feel you missed her. After that, tingman mo kung pareho parin ba ang nararamdaman mo. At kung tama ako then, all of the drama is nothing more than libog lang. If not then, you are screwed falling for someone who is not willing to be with you.

The Wanderer!

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Subnerubian
Tuesday, 14 August 2018, 12:05 AM (17 hours ago)

Unfortunately it's the latter.

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anino
Tuesday, 14 August 2018, 10:47 AM (6 hours ago)

No point continuing that kung depression at anxiety lang makukuha mo sa bandang huli. You know what to do, takot ka lang gawin ang natatama para sa'yo.

The Wanderer!

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Subnerubian
Tuesday, 14 August 2018, 01:30 AM (15 hours ago)

BTW The affair is a two way street. I have my own faults in this as well.

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